Thursday, February 07, 2013
The more I deal with this world's trappings, the more I want of Jesus.
I am not rich by U.S. standards, but certainly compared to most of my friends in Peru, I would be considered QUITE well off. I am able to make monthly payments on my van. I have been making the mortgage payments for the two years since my husband passed away - [so WHY can't the bank just add my name to it? Oh, that's right - they have to bleed me of as much extra money as they can]. Granted, I've occasionally been a bit delayed on one bill or another due to the cash flow - too many bills coming due near the same time - but my biweekly pay DOES cover them. I've been able to afford little special treats. I've been chipping away at my late husband's hospital bills and with next pay will have paid off one more - just another 500 or so on the last one! On top of that I have been able to send money to Levi occasionally, to help or to bless - and though I've broken up with him, I don't regret my generosity. I still love his family.
Things have not been easy by a long shot. But I am grateful for a roof over my head, and for wheels and meals, and so much more. I have a COMPUTER! I have CABLE! I have electricity and hot and cold running water! I have a washer and dryer!
These things can hold the appearance of wealth to those who have a truly impoverished background. But my greatest wealth is Christ. These things can all be taken away in a moment - not that I live in a region noted for tornadoes or hurricanes or earthquakes - but things happen. Unemployment, accidents...I have been learning not to place too much store on THINGS, because they will not last.
But I can't lose Jesus. And I know He won't let go of ME.