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A very sad day today

Thursday, February 07, 2013

I started my day at peace, but just a phone call was enough to make it all go downhill.
Today my friend's mom passed away, and to make things even worst my friend is miles away in a hospital slowly dying herself. She doesn't know that her mom died today, I know her family has told her but I don't think she can hear them. She is in life support after stage four kidney failure and stage 4 lung failure.
it makes me realize how fragile life is. We think we got the rest of our lives to do such and such but how long is the rest of our lives exactly?
Sussy my friend was a very outgoing person, always smiling, always flirting, i loved her enthusiasm for everything, but deep down I could see her facade. She longed for peace and love. She loved her family but they were always arguing, she was seen as ignorant by them because she was disabled and she always tried so hard to be accepted. Her marriage of twelve years came crumbling down and she was in the middle of an ugly divorce. She talked of all the things she wanted to do, but now she won't get the chance.
Her sister says the doctor are just waiting, there is really nothing more that can be done. I know that if she does pass away she will be in a better place but it still saddens me that I can't be there to talk to her in her final hours. I always let her do the talking and she always urged me to talk, to say what i needed to say, i never did. Now I wish i could confide in her like she did with me. Sussy more than a friend was like my older sister. She was my baby sitter when I was a little girl and she continued being a friend even until now. I've known her for more than half my life. teaches me that you really never know what tomorrow has in store for you. One minute you are here and then... I know I am rambling and i am so sorry but I needed to say this.
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    What a blog. I'm so sorry for your friend. I'm so sorry for you.

    It's true that anything can happen at any time with any of us.

    What a sad day for you. Sometimes I feel that people are put on this earth and touch one another's lives in so many different ways. A lesson for us to carry on with, something that just lets us know that we have to carry on and do better, acknowledge, learn.

    Perhaps her message has been received by the people who were meant to receive it. Perhaps the way she's going, is a message to us. Look at how many people she and you have just touched by this. All your friends that read this blog, got a lesson in life.

    I wish you comfort for the following days. Comfort and peace while your friend walks away and leaves you behind. As you feel her walking away, let go of her hand. Wave good-bye, cry, and then look behind you and take another person's hand that is reaching out to you.

    1895 days ago
    I admire the insight you have of feeling the sad and coming through with appreciation for every precious moment we have. You life well living carries the memory of departed loved ones.

    Stay strong! emoticon
    1896 days ago
    emoticon emoticon There are no words for what you are dealing with at this time. May you find comfort and peace in your memories throughout this difficult time and beyond.
    1896 days ago
    My thoughts and prayers are with you and their families. Blessings to you in this hard time.
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    Try to think of the good times.... emoticon emoticon
    1896 days ago
    Talk to her even though you are far away, The universe will get your love to her. My thoughts are with you. Your friend knows you love her and treasured all the time you two had together. emoticon
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    So sorry for your sorrows.
    1896 days ago
    Life is precious, and we never know when we'll reach the end of our road. You loved your friend - that is beautiful, and that is enough.

    1896 days ago
    I am so sorry for your grief and loss. I know words from a stranger probably don't mean much, and there really aren't words that can take away the pain, but please know that I DO care and hope that good memories of your time with this friend and her mom will help to heal your hurt.
    1896 days ago
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