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Not normal

Wednesday, February 06, 2013

I don't know if this is a good thing or not.
I've been concentrating on my health/eating/fitness quite a bit lately. I have been trying to take my focus off my work, and divert it back to me. I think this is healthy -- I am really feeling some good things in my bod. But I wonder...

This whole thing is not normal for me. It's not normal for me to be unmotivated at work (I'm not organizing my thoughts -- probably because I'm not thinking about work outside the office). Also, I did something a little disturbing to me: I cancelled my enrollment in an online class.

When I say this isn't normal for me, that's an understatement. I have never, NEVER quit something before I was finished. But with looming and short deadlines, I just didn't feel like I could do it justice, so I dropped. Is this re-focusing for a time, or is this failure? Am I prioritizing, or quitting? Did I drop because I am really spread too thin, or because I'm lazy and avoiding reality?

I'm disturbed and disappointed in myself. I guess I will see how I feel tomorrow, and a couple weeks from now. I feel like I'm taking on too much, but then again, I have kind of felt like that since I can remember. I just don't know.
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    its normal! And you can always take the course again! Dont beat yourself up! And dont drop your health for other priorities! You should be #1! emoticon

    * I have dropped a graduate course so I understand the feeling! But Have also taken it again and passed with higher marks then I would have
    1932 days ago
    Sometimes we just need to quit. I know it sounds harsh, but if you are doing too much then it is best. Since you can't seem to focus at work and were putting off assignments for the class I am sure that is the case. Take some time, reprioritize the things that are important to you. You will get it all figured out.
    Best of Luck
    1933 days ago
  • IAMNOT61
    It might help to keep a journal of your goals and emotions. Good luck with your lifestyle changes.
    1933 days ago
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