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Wednesday, February 06, 2013

Friday will mark my 1 year anniversary of being at, or below, my goal weight of 160 pounds, better known as 1 YEAR OF MAINTENANCE!!! This past year has been one of the hardest years I have ever experienced. Don't get me wrong life has been great. I feel amazing! However; maintenance is HARD! For me losing the weight was a crazy, fun, trying experience, and although physically hard it didn't take nearly the toll that maintenance has on my mind and soul.

Yet here I am one year later and I haven't failed, much to my surprise. I still wake up rather often expecting to see a 300 pound person in the mirror, and it is always a delightful time when I don't. I still have some self esteem issues I am working on and I am still developing a HEALTHY relationship with food, but yet again I am here.

I haven't quit, I haven't given up and even though it is hard, I am still fighting. I still workout almost daily, I still have to watch what I eat and I still have some things to work on, but I am doing it. Working out has become more of my daily routine than a chore, although some days I still have to push myself to do it. I still have days, well more often nights, that I struggle with eating healthy and I even have days I give in.

But for me the most important thing I have learned over the past year is that as long as I am trying I am not a failure. When I entered this crazy maintenance period I was deathly afraid that I was going to fail. That I was going to gain all of my weight back and that I would just be another statistic. Someone who just couldn't do it. I had people tell me "You know you will probably gain all your weight back." "It is just going to be too hard for you to stick to it." I could go on and on. You know what those people did? They gave me the nudge I needed to keep going.

Have I gained some of the weight back, of course. Will weight be a struggle the rest of my life, you better believe it. I certainly didn't get to be 300 pounds because I don't like to eat. But what I do know is that as long as I try, as long as I pull myself out of bed and go to the gym, as long as I don't eat too crazy, I will succeed.

Creeping up on this one year anniversary and still being below my goal weight is surprising, but when I really think about it, of course I am still here. I refuse to go back to where I was. I didn't fight this hard to just give up. I want to show people that hell yes it is hard but IT IS POSSIBLE!!!

Right before I started my journey. (Christmas 2010)

Reaching my "GOAL WEIGHT" (February 2012)

Present Day. (January 31st 2013)
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  • MARIO432
    You look amazing.
    Congratulations on your maintenance.
    2182 days ago
    emoticon You look great!

    Try to block out the negative people. You know what they say-"Misery loves company." Don't even go there with them! You have showed them they are wrong anyways!
    2227 days ago
    I am just starting this journey and you are an inspiration to me. At 53 a 72 lb. weight loss is going to be hard. You did so good and look great. Woohoo to you! emoticon
    2231 days ago
  • SINGER73
    emoticon You are doing emoticon
    2233 days ago
  • MILLIE5522
    emoticon on your one year at maintenance. I am currently maintaining and struggling with the new battles that come. I am finding that eating more calories per day makes me feel hungrier than less !?! I suppose its because on those high calorie days I am eating more of the unhealthy foods....duh! Still learning! emoticon
    2244 days ago
  • SHERRY28269
    Keep up the good work. I think as long as you keep up your healthy habits and keep your eating in check you will do fine. It's when you throw caution to the wind and quit tracking your weight and exercise is when you are on the path to gain the weight back. Keep turning negatives into positives!
    2246 days ago
  • DRKEYEZ820
    WHOLY CRAPOLA WOMAN! you look freakin AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You SHOULD be so proud of yourself, always continue to be proud of yourself. You WORKED HARD to get where u are. And like you said, as long as you TRY you will NEVER be a failure, not just in your eyes, but in just about anyones, especially here. WTG!
    2247 days ago
  • DOTTY7267
    You look great!
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    2247 days ago
    Congratulations - you have come such a long way. You are an inspiration!

    2247 days ago
  • MINEA999
    Congratulations! You inspire me!
    2248 days ago
    CONGRATULATIONS on your first year of are LIVING PROOF that it CAN be done and are an inspiration!
    2248 days ago
    Happy Maintenance Anniversary! I can only imagine how difficult the maintenance journey is - I'm a bit frightened at the thought of it. However, you're doing awesome so keep up the great work! emoticon
    2249 days ago
    I am close to my goal weight and I started thinking about the maintenance issue because I think it is much more difficult than losouing the last 15 pounds. So I applaud you on your accomplishments. Keep up the good work.
    2250 days ago
    WOW! What an look fabulous! Of course you're going to have setbacks, you're human. Keep up the great work!
    2250 days ago
  • ROSE284
    Wow, you look amazing! Congrats on your one year, that is brilliant!
    2250 days ago
    You look great, congrats! I was in maintenance for 2 months after 187 lbs lost in 2007. I gave up and gained back 153 lbs but I am back at it again with 118.6 lost! Keep up the awesome work!
    2251 days ago
    Wow- that was fabulous. I identified so much with the difficulty of maintenance and the surprise of being successful with it. Thank you for sharing your experience with us. You are an inspiration
    2251 days ago

    Stumbled across your blog while looking for inspiration and I've found it here emoticon

    You have come out strong during your maintenance period. Keep up the
    good work, your are encouraging others to keep strong with their weight loss goals.

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    2251 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/17/2013 5:43:53 AM
    Fantastic!! Thank you for sharing!! You have done a great job!
    2252 days ago
    Congratulations keeping the weight off! It certainly is worth the look amazing!
    2252 days ago
    Congratulations on your success. You look awesome.
    You will always look back on these past years as the most rewarding and important ones in your life and the future of your daughter.
    Good luck in the future and remember take one day at a time and be strong. Stay positive.
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    2252 days ago
    You look amazing! Congratulations on maintaining. It is hard!
    2253 days ago
    You look terrific! So healthy and slim and fit!! Congrats to you on your achievement. I agree, maintenance is tough and requires eternal vigilance: but you are doing it!!
    2253 days ago
    Jessi you look AWESOME girl! Way to go and keep up the great job of maintenence! You are so worth it! Woo Hoo!
    2253 days ago
    Amazing! I know I lost only 60 pounds and don't ever want to go back, you must feel like a new person! Every time I want to give up and eat anything I want, I remember where I used to be and it stops me dead in my tracks. What everyone else says in nothing in comparison to what you have accomplished. emoticon
    2253 days ago
    The change you went through is spectacular!

    I had a similar experience regarding my new body, how I percieve myself. To me, it was about 10 months after I was at target weight, that my internal image started to change. The way I entered the room was different now, but somehow, for 10 months, I thought I enter the room with the "old" self.

    Now, they match, and I don't even think about it. But it was a long process.

    I would be interested to read more about how you percieved yourself back then, and how it is now.

    Way to go!
    2253 days ago
  • no profile photo VANANDEL
    Happy Anniversary and thanks for telling it like it is! People need to know that maintenance is not an easy process and that it goes on and on and on and on (do I hear a song lyric there??) But being at a normal weight is its own reward - your body is healthier, you feel good about yourself, and you can do so much more! Congratulations!
    2253 days ago
    emoticon Great job - and what a wise lesson to learn. There may be some arenas in which failure is terminal, the end of the struggle, but our healthy body (and mind) are not one of them. You're fighting an important fight indeed and winning just by showing up day after day to fight.
    2254 days ago
  • _LINDA
    WoW!!! Looking FANTABULOUS!! You have come a long way!!
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    Keep up the amazing work!!
    2254 days ago
    emoticon on your 1 year maintenance anniversary!! You're awesome!! You're a beautiful lady - inside and out. Loved your blog - it's right on the money. You've got a great attitude and plenty of moxy & determination. I entered maintenance around Christmas time 2012 and am finding out that everything you say about it being HARD is so true. The good news is emoticon

    All the best to you on your journey. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2254 days ago
    My sister tells me that it takes a year per 25 pounds lost to become accustomed to your lower body weight. The precise number may not be accurate, but the idea that it takes time to adjust your view of yourself rings true.

    I didn't lose as much weight as you did, only going from 196 to the low 160s. But it took me about a year to get used to thinking that this is how much I weigh and what I look like, instead of thinking I look like I've lost a lot of weight. Amazingly enough, it took about a year for everyone I know to get used to how I look and stop either complimenting me on weight loss or telling me I'm too thin.

    And yes, maintenance is hard. There is no visible reason to eat less than the social norm; but we both know there is a good reason to eat so that the weight trend goes sideways, and that typically means eating less than the social norm in America.
    2254 days ago
    emoticon You've done an emoticon job! Maintaining is hard! (I think it's harder than losing!) Keep it up! YOU are worth it!
    2254 days ago
  • _JODI404
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    So good to see you back on SP!!! You were missed!

    *T*I*O*N*S* !!!!!!!!!!!!! on your ONE YEAR

    Maintenance Anniversary!!!! You look beautiful, and as I would expect, your guns are looking killer!!

    So glad that you are doing well. It's great that those negative people gave you a nudge to work harder at being healthy! (I know the world is full of it... but really -- what is wrong with people!?! So awful!). Anyhow, no matter, you brushed that right off & are an true inspiration and success story.

    Congratulations on all your success to date & your continued success to come!

    2254 days ago
    Amazing job!!!!! Way to go!!!!!
    2254 days ago
  • MY1FAN
    Congrats! You're doing great.
    2254 days ago
  • POPSY190
    The photographs say it all! It's so encouraging to see someone spell out the difficulties and pleasures of maintenance when so much attention goes to weight loss. Well done!
    2254 days ago
  • -RUBIES-
    You are doing more than "trying"... you are "accomplishing"! You've put in the hard work and it shows. Continue with your good habits... it's your lifestyle. You are beautiful!
    2254 days ago
  • MKELLY72
    You look amazing! You bet it's hard--sometimes it's an everyday struggle, but you have done it. congratulations!! I'm right behind year for me Feb 23! It feels almost surreal to have made it this far in maintenance--much like you mentioned waking up and expecting the former you to be looking at you in the mirror--I keep getting that same pleasant surprise too. It's so great!
    To the years to come!! emoticon
    2254 days ago
    You look absolutely wonderful! Congratulations on your one year of maintenance! emoticon
    2254 days ago
  • MOMMY445
    wow! you look fabulous! you are so inspiring and motivating to me! have a wonderful day!
    2254 days ago
    Wow, your story is awesome.
    Great photos as well.
    Happy Valentine's Day.
    2254 days ago
    Awesome pictures! Congratulations, especially on transforming the negatives into motivation! You rock!
    2254 days ago
  • HHB4181
    Wow! Amazing Job! Congrats to you. I love your arms

    2254 days ago
    CONGRATULATIONS on reaching this important milestone! Too little is written out there to help us prepare for and beat the odds with maintenance, but you're doing it. Way to go--keep at it, let's be part of a trend to change those stupid statistics!

    2254 days ago
    Happy anniversary and congratulations!! Awesome job and very inspiring!!
    2254 days ago
    emoticon Thanks for sharing your story, very inspiring. Let's us know that it can be done!
    2254 days ago
    Go girl, Go!
    Read my blog about True Love!
    2254 days ago
    You look incredible. Keep up the positive outlook. emoticon
    2254 days ago
    Congratulations! Whatever you are doing works! The self esteem stuff will settle down as the years come and go at goal, and you become accustomed to the New Normal. One day your "before" pics will be like looking at photos of your hometown from before you were born.
    2254 days ago
    Congratulations on your anniversary and proving the naysayers wrong. You look great!
    2254 days ago
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