Catching Up

Wednesday, February 06, 2013

Life has been an emotional roller coaster lately. I've hardly been posting here because I have been so exhausted, I've been feeling too spacey to focus on anything for longer than five minutes. I made an appointment with my doctor a week ago to address my sleep issues. I hope she has something good to say to help me get more sleep! I got a solid six last night. Woo.

Anyway, here's a snapshot of my weekend:

Thursday Night: Come home from derby practice stoked because I passed my skills test and I'm officially a Burning River Roller Girl. Tell my mom about it, she's excited and then tells me that my grandma isn't doing well and we expect her to pass soon.

Friday Morning: Driving to work, weather is total ass - snow everywhere & the road is an ice rink. My mom calls and leaves me a VM telling me that my grandma had passed away around 7 AM. I call her back to make sure she is okay and be sad with someone. I try to go to work anyway. Initially, I'm in shock or something but when it finally sank in, I had to GTFO ASAP. Went home to be with my family.

Saturday: Spent most of the day running errands with my BF, including looking for something to wear to the wake on Sunday. Mostly an enjoyable day as long as I stayed in the moment.

Sunday: Wake. Super Bowl. Sad. Fun. Thanks, beer.

Monday: Funeral. After being raised Catholic, I opt not to practice organized religion anymore so going to church was super weird. Going to the cemetery after was weird. That side of my family is awkward. It was just a weird day all around. Then I went grocery shopping with my BF which always makes it less MEH. It felt kind of weird to just live like normal because I'm sad about my grandma but also recognize what else can I do?

Tuesday: Back to work, like usual. Emotionally spent from the weekend. After work, my BF and I recorded me singing "I Just Called to Say I Love You" as a birthday gift for my mom. She's turning 21 (55) this weekend and even though Stevie Wonder is annoying, that song is involved in a special memory from my childhood and I think she'll love it. I think it's way cool that my BF is all musically inclined and has professional recording equipment. Pretty fun.

Today: Feeling great after six hours of sleep sounds sad but it's seriously the most I've had for a month. Super excited to go to derby practice tonight. We're scrimmaging and then after league practice, the "farm" team that I'm on (until drafts happen again) has a practice so, boom, exercise galore tonight.

All right. Well, this blog post was mega long and not exactly fitness related but the way I see it, mental fitness is important, too. And, EEEH, I've needed to vent. Happy Wednesday, everyone!
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    My condolences on the loss of your grandmother. Congratulation on making the team. I bet your mother loves the recording and I hope you manage to get more sleep like the six hours you had in the post, the exercise might wear you down enough to make you sleepy. Look forward to your next post.
    1957 days ago
    I was wondering where you've been, miss lady.

    I'm very sorry for your loss. Take care of yourself, and remember your grandmother lives on in your heart and memories of her.

    CONGRATS on making the league!!! Roller Derby is a great place to lose yourself in the physical stuff.

    I know sleep is super important, keep us posted on what you find out.
    1963 days ago
    I'm sorry about your Grandma. It's never easy to say goodbye to someone you love.

    On a happier note, congrats about making the league!!
    1964 days ago
  • JAHAR929
    Yay for making the team ;) Congrats on passing skills!!! Derby is an incredible sport! I love several girls on your team!

    Sorry for the rough weekend! Hang in there! Lean on those you love and stay busy. We're all family in the derby community! Sending you some RCRG love!
    1964 days ago
    oh sorry to hear about your Grandma, sounds like you have an amazing BF!! Glad you had gotten some sleep! Here's to a mellow rest of your week!
    1964 days ago
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