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***don't have to lie anymore!!!!***

Wednesday, February 06, 2013

I have been lying on my driver's license about my weight since I began driving. I always felt like , if they weren't going to validate it by having me step on the scale, I had the right to give an "approximate" number. I even tried to make myself feel better about lying about it by saying, "well if the police were chasing me for a crime and had to identify me over radio, how much would they THINK I weighed?" Mind you, that is a very far-fetched idea; I have never been in any rouble and didn't even get my first ticket until I was 28 years old. But I convinced myself that shaving off 30, maybe even 50 pounds was okay because I didn't "look" my weight. Let's be clear: when I was 256 lbs, there was NO WAY I looked like the 209 lbs that I put on my driver's license. I was far past delusional to think no one would notice that sort of difference, but I did it anyway. This past July, two months into my weight loss journey, I had to get a new license. This time I was more rational in my thinking. Yes, I was back up to 259lbs after losing a considerable amount of weight two years prior, but I was also on a new weight loss journey and I was commited. THIS time, I was more conservative and put my weight at 218 lbs. Well today, I can celebrate and say that I AM FINALLY LIVING IN MY TRUTH! MY ID IS FINALLY VALID! I honestly feel like proud of my body for once so if I had to get a new license TODAY, would I lie about my poundage? I don't think so. I actually enjoy the shock value that comes with telling people I am 218 pounds. I earned 218 pounds. When I was young and insecure about being over 200 lbs, I may have looked at the 54 pounds lost, look at that 218 and say, "I can pass for 180." But I am tired of "passing". You don't help anyone by "passing". And if I gain 20 lbs, I have to be willing to tell that truth as well because honestly I got fatter over the years by lying to myself about my true size. Had I kept it real with myself, maybe I would have began this journey a long time before I did. I am just happy to finally be who I claimed to be!
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    This feels like a confessional! Yes I hav lied about my weight on my drivers liscense and my military i.d. emoticon I wish these imaginary pounds would take off and go somewhere.
    1899 days ago
  • SARAL72
    My French driver license doesn't have a weight on it (and knowing some of my skinny friends so ashamed of their imaginary extra weight, I think if one day our government was thinking about it, they would have a revolution or a strike in the streets in two seconds) and neither did my New-Zealand one. When I arrived in DC, I was at my heaviest, I felt really bad about writing down my weight on the paper work for the driver license, especially because my HR officer took care of our papers, and people working on the same floor as me for four years could have access to that information. I must say I did think about that for two minutes when writing on the form, and it was not a really big deal after that day, but writing it down felt like I had to give private information to perfect strangers....when my own husband didn't even know my weight!
    When we moved to Arizona, we did our papers our self, and I must admit I didn't feel that bad, even if my weight was still very high. I even made a joke at the DMV, telling my husband I should write down my goal weight instead of my real weight because anyway it's not easy to see in my face if I lose weight or not. He replied : who cares about your weight here except you? it's just a piece of I wrote 230 pounds by chance, I think I was 145 kilos at that time (320 pounds!), I didn't exactly know what was the right number for the conversion but I knew I was probably around 300, I just picked a "nice looking" number by chance. I know today that this number is my Spring/Summer goal, today it doesn't look so far from reach, I can be there in a few months from now.
    Congrats on reaching "your truth", I can't wait to reach mine! and then be proud when it will be a lie again, but this time when I will be under 230!
    1899 days ago
    I had always lied on mine too, but I haven't updated mine in so long I weigh quite a bit less than...but I don't care :)

    CONGRATS! :)
    1901 days ago
    Happy for you! I didn't lie on mine, and don't know if it's on there, but I've lost my weight and don't look like me on the ID, so I can't wait to retake the picture! Hoping to do that this summer.....Okay, you got me to take out my ID and look. MI doesn't put it on the ID either, but I still look heavier than I really am. I get the 2nd double take look when I get carded! I love it!! :)
    1901 days ago
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    1901 days ago
    I think we've all been there. At 170 I was "150 lbs." And, yeah, that feeling of actually hitting "driver's license weight" is pretty spectacular. Go you!
    1902 days ago
    I'm guilty of not being completely honest on drivers license, too. However, NOW you don't have to. I'm thinking ahead to what that number may be the next time you have to renew! emoticon on making the info on your license true! Keep it up!
    1902 days ago
    great thanks for sharing
    1902 days ago
    That's so fantastic! I lied on my ID when I got it, too... and now I'm 18 pounds LIGHTER than it says!!!!! It's a great feeling, isn't it? :-D Fantastic job!!!!!!!!!!!!! Savor the proud feelings you have!
    1903 days ago
  • DONNA5281
    Great blog!
    Thank you for sharing!

    1903 days ago
    As you have learned, when you do not tell the truth the person you hurt the most is you.

    I am proud of you and you should certainly be proud of yourself! It does feel good to tell the truth at any time but I know what you mean with the weight on the drivers license!

    Good Job!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1903 days ago
    emoticon thankfully, NY doesnt require weight on the license!
    1903 days ago
    Congrats girl! Well deserved emoticon
    1903 days ago
    Way to go! Congrats on living in the truth. Fortunately for me Texas dares not make us display our weight. haha
    Being able to love that you are getting healthier and appreciating exactly where you are at on your journey is soo great. :)
    1903 days ago
    emoticon I'm lying on mine since I put down my weight which was much higher than it is now. I don't know by how much since I'm from NH and they have a code for weight and mine is a 3.
    1903 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/6/2013 3:01:08 PM
    Awesome!! emoticon
    1903 days ago
  • SUGAR0814
    Great job Nikki! I had to look on my DL to see what weight I told. My weight wasn't listed! Yay! But it's on my military ID & there it was, staring at me, a BIG FAT lie! O well, I'll tell the truth when it's time to renew! LOL By then, I'll weigh less!!!

    1903 days ago
    WOO HOOOOO! Well done!
    Although I really don't understand why you guys have to put your weight on your driver's licence anyway. How are those two things even remotely related?
    I can't wait to get a new one when mine runs out, because my face is so roundy on my old one.
    1903 days ago
  • MISSB8604
    SO cool! I can't wait to do this!!!!!

    It wasn't that I lied, but because I guess I didn't LOOK 285 they assumed I was A LOT less than that. I think I remember seeing 190etc when I was younger. Pretty funny stuff.
    1903 days ago
  • DALID414
    Wow! You made me check my license to see what weight I once put WAY back when (I have my license renewed by mail and STILL have the same pix I took at 19!!) I'm 10 lbs higher than I was at 19, crazy!
    1903 days ago
    I am guilty i lied on my license as well...
    1903 days ago
  • KNH771
    emoticon I remember the first time I was honest on my driver's license. emoticon to you!
    1903 days ago
    Awesome! =) This is a great victory, lady! I can't wait to be at my actual DL weight also! :)
    1903 days ago
    I've always lied on mine...
    1903 days ago
    I always lied on mine. then when I was under the weight I had put on, I wanted a new ID! But, I got pregnant and time slipped by and then... I was well over the number. :( Boo! But, I am slowly creeping back down to that number. so, yay!
    1903 days ago
    Woo hoo! Pretty soon you'll be way UNDER that weight. You were better than I was, I had 200 on my drivers license since I was 16... and I was never at 200 since like 14. Now a days, people do double takes at my ID then my face, then my ID again just to make sure. I think it still says 200, but heck, when I move and get a new one I guess I'll finally be truthful!
    1903 days ago
  • KIMBERLY19732
    1903 days ago
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    1903 days ago
    Congrats!! I've lied on my state ID also... It's embarrasing I think to admit the weight gain knowing that I should have never gotten that size to begin with and its easier to deal with a little white lie than to deal with the truth sometimes.
    1903 days ago
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