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Wednesday, February 06, 2013

I'm peeking from the cracks .. I don't want to crawl out of bed in the morning... Life is becoming very overwhelming, I'm loosing ME times, I can't seem to "do it all" .. my battery is running dry really fast .. and we're only into February .. :?

Did you ever find that when you become overwhelmed .. what is the first thing to suffer .. YOUR self support .. That's where I am now .. Things are being shot at me way too fast, and I'm just not ready for any of it ..

I soooo miss my December when I had time for ME at night, was able to "look forward" to my exercise ME time each night .. Now things are packing into my ME times; and I can just dream of the days if and when I can get them back .. I leave work .. in which I'm now up to 6- what would be 40 hour a week jobs .. I have rented out as much help as I can afford .. mentally and monetarily .. but by the time I leave work .. and finally get home .. I'm exhausted ..

I keep telling myself (I live in Wisconsin, and we've been having some first class ICKY weather) that I'm looking so forward to the warmer weather when "I can get out of this cave for at least a walk during my lunch" .. and "I want to take file boxes to the storage bin" .. just to get some activity in ..

Activity .. It really works ... I came in this morning with a MEGA chip on my shoulder .. didn't say a word to anyone, and dared anyone to look at me wrong .. I hauled 12 file boxes next door to the warehouse until I have a chance to have a nice day and get them to the storage unit ... and I feel great .. EXERCISE WORKS .. Now how can I encorporate it into my EVERY day routine, without it feeling like "just one more thing that I HAVE to do .. " ???? Hmmmmm

The struggles continue ... I think this is part of life .. these are things that can make me stronger, or make me weaker (in more ways than just physically) ..

If anyone has any ideas of incorporating exercise into my day I would really appreciate it .. Any thoughts ??? I work in a single layer building .. Our office is about the size of a "Starbucks", I do have permission to use my boss's stairstepper in back which I use when I'm really stressed .. but doing that for 5 minutes doesn't constitute "exercise" in my brain .. it constitutes "reconstructing my brain thoughts" ...

Have a wonderful day all .. Sorry -- have been busy .. No imaginary sweets today .. but I do have hot coffee and hot tea .. if you wish !!!! emoticon and of course .. PLENTY of water !!!!!
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    OH GOD KW !!!! I CAN'T TELL YOU HOW MUCH THAT WOULD MAKE ME FEEL ALL BETTER !!!!!!! Just cooling my heels until April/May !!!!! Trust me !!!!! emoticon and by then I probably won't even need the truck to get there .. lol
    1900 days ago
  • STACYR31
    Don't worry eventually you will get back to exercising regulary! I keep telling myself the same thing. I work full time, have two little kids and I'm taking care of my parents with the possibility of my mom going on hospice. Life gets crazy but you can't beat yourself up over it. The only thing you can do is ride out the storm! emoticon
    1900 days ago
    I have the solution!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Come visit your home in Kentucky. :) It's a win, win outcome.

    Love you,
    1900 days ago
    My! My! you really are down! I know the weather is bad and keeps you from walking outside. Do you have a treadmill? Did you know 5 minutes here and there during the day works really great to speed up metabolism and build muscles. That is what sparks keeps telling me. That is what I am doing. I feel so much more energetic. The clothes are fitting better and I am losing some also.

    Sparks has a team about "Chair exercises", as well. anything you can do will make you feel better.

    Keep seaching and stay determined.
    1900 days ago
  • LUCKY1964
    just make sure that you realize that you are running a treadmill mentally in your head already dear. Don't stress if things get a little behind in the working out the great thing about it is that the only person who puts time limits on these things is you. If you can do a couple of crunches before you leave your bedroom in the morning, take a walk around outside or even just in place for a little while on your lunch break. Make a sack dinner and hit the park for a late afternoon stroll it will help get some of the working out in there and above all don't stress so much it tends to make us give up quicker. It may be a trying month but just remember you got this!!!!
    1900 days ago
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