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Point A to Point B

Wednesday, February 06, 2013

When you limit your vision (as I have), sometimes all you can manage is getting from Point A to Point B. Lately, my life feels all about work, and what I can do to get ahead, and I am getting ahead. The deal is not yet inked but I have taken on tons of new responsibilities and once the re-org shakes out, out pops the title and level I have been working for.

Great. All great.

But, what else?

What else is there? I have a tendency to terrorize myself when I am faced with new challenges with a head full of doubt. I have a tendency to think I don't matter in all of this when I know the exact opposite is true (I matter the most.)

Yesterday I was having a meeting with one of my new direct reports and he suffers from lack of self. Deeply. In my head, even I am not that bad, and actually I am not, but I started looking at myself through his eyes, (or rather my perception of his perception ...back up while I get a little deep) and I started to see myself in a new way.

I wanted to shake, rattle and roll my body. I need to be able to breathe more easily, move more freely, do more without major planning of where and when I need to be somewhere. Oy, there are some difficulties, but really all is well if I build myself a better life and a better way of living.

That's just it, the end result will be something I want because I will have put all of the pieces into place. I can't get there from here without taking all of the steps in between. There is no shortcut to Point B. I will get there when I get there.

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    1953 days ago
    You will get there. I like your deep thoughts.
    1956 days ago
    Lead and we will follow.
    1957 days ago
    You have all the reasons too! And I know that emoticon
    Be strong!!
    1961 days ago
    You're doing just fine, Mar. I see all these changes in you happening along the way- and they're all good ones. Congratulations on the new responsibilities! :)
    They do come with their own burdens, but are usually so worth it!
    Time for both of us to spend more time on US and enjoy the flowers along the way.
    1961 days ago
    Congrats on your career advancement! There you have plotted how to move from A to B - all the way to at least X.

    You will do the same thing with yourself starting by moving to B. You can do it - with all the focus and skills you have! emoticon

    You deserve it.
    1962 days ago
  • DOODIE59
    That's a very clear minded view of the situation. And it's not just about your self perception, but your plan for the future, not just for parts of you (your mind) but ALL of you:) It's all about better health so you can make the most of what you've been given.

    Another sparkfriend, who has fallen prey to a debilitating illness, has said, "Oh I wish I had enjoyed my body and made full use of it when I had it, instead of grousing about what I didn't have (perfect weight)" I'm paraphrasing a little here because I can't remember her exact words, but her point was that it is important to enjoy what we've got, be grateful for what we've got. I do believe that it is easier to get healthy from that standpoint. Hugs and support:)
    1962 days ago
    I play from that same sheet of music, Mick. Neither of us are shrinking violets professionally--but when it comes to self-esteem? On the other hand, being Type As, we are goal-driven, and easily discouraged when we stumble or otherwise divert ourselves from the direct path to Point B. One nice thing about getting older is that you realize after a while that no matter how well you plan or how hard you try to control the progress of destiny, it has a way of putting its own "English" on things, and sending you down paths you never anticipated. Even when you roll with the punches--**you're still rolling**--and even if you aren't making a lot of progress, you're not out of the game. I think most of us neglect ourselves when the demands become too many and the mental energy to respond to them diminishes a little more with every new mandate. Remember what your parents told you when you were little: JUST DO YOUR BEST. That's all any of us can do, every day of our lives. The trick is to accept your best as a good thing, and not weigh it down with perceptions of failure. (I need to remind myself to do that, too!) I'm proud of who you are and what you've accomplished, and know you to be a good and loyal and supportive friend. I can count on one hand the number of people about whom I can say that--put that in your self-esteem and smoke it! emoticon
    1962 days ago
    Wonderful blog. My self esteem is non-existant on my best days, but I'm working on it. It takes time and you are obviously moving in the right direction. emoticon
    1962 days ago
  • _KATHY
    Mar, You will indeed get there. It's difficult to change one's inner perspective. That, along with new responsibilities, takes time and constant learning. You are doing that. And just as you develop confidence in what you know and do about your new job, you cultivate and nurture your self image. Affirmations will help grow your roots deep and solid. Also, until you have that deep confidence in yourself personally, believe people who do have that confidence in you. You are more than you think you are! :)
    1962 days ago
    You can do it!
    1962 days ago
    Sometime life could get you overwhelm feelings. Time like this, I always step back a bit and take it one step at a time. No need to rush, defiantly short cut is not the way. (*^^*)
    Glad to hear from you. Hope you been doing well take care.

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    1962 days ago
  • MJRVIC2000
    Let You Heart Reveal Jesus! Our future is always in front of us and not behind us. Turn your eyes upon Jesus. God Bless YOU! Vic.
    1962 days ago
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