Reality Check

Wednesday, February 06, 2013

Hi Spark

I m gonna cry LOL

I am almost done with my Real estate classes.
I am mid way through my flip project.

I have made a ton of EXCUSE As to way I can't "exercise"
and I think I have been stress eating.

Yesterday was a wake up call.

I know I have "gained" but thought i was ok.
I have not run for months and was fine before etc.

My hubby pulled out P90x, just the AB ripper!

I was like SURE.....

OH MY GOD! I lost all my muscle....

I had no idea.... I felt like I had 20lbs on me
I could still do some move....
but I felt like there were Loose fat in places that wasn't
(SOFT where it was tight)

I was mostly Cardio and the inner thigh "fat" that stopped me from doing some of the moves!!!

So after I LOOKED At myself in the mirror
you know, REALLY LOOKED........ I can't believe how I have let myself go!

It's funny, how I just don't pay attention to ME!

I also started thinking about my dietry habit!
I haven't had a DECENT healthy meals in MONTHS!!!!! (CLEAN)

I think in my grazing I am consuming 3000 cals a day without realizing it!

I jumped on the scale 182!!!!! back to square one!


the first 2 year here, I was in the EXTREME
you all were probably to POLITE to tell me ;p

but I needed it, it needed to know I can do it if I put my mind to it.

but who in real world exercise 4 hours a day. running and p90xing and eat clean.
it was a job in itself!


this time it will be SLOW and steady.
I need to fit it into my crazy schedule

I need to switch my mindset at running 1 mile is NO BIG DEAL!

when I run I feel is I can't ru 5 miles, I am a failure (I need to change that)

and I need to do a fridge overall


It's that I just let to slide on the back burner and it's a slippery slope.

I really need your support.

sorry this has been such a roller coaster journey.
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    girl, we all slip and slide, and we are all here to support each other thru it! i gained back about half of what i lost (45 lbs) and i am trying to get back to working out harder and eating better again, i didn't let go and completely mess things up, but like yourself, i got a little slack and gave myself too much leeway. you will get back to your glory, just do little things every day to get there!! i am here for you and totally understand!!
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    2447 days ago
    It is definitely a rollercoaster, but you can do this!
    2448 days ago
    No tears necessary! Reality checks can be super tough, but it sounds like you already have a good plan in place and know what to do! I always find maintaining to be so much harder than anything.
    2448 days ago
    First step is realizing that you have to do something and you've done that! We're here for you if you need us!!
    2448 days ago
    You're pulling yourself up again, and that's the first step! Take it slow, and you'll be back to your healthy self before you know it. You can do it!
    2448 days ago
    You are not starting over; that would mean you're looking at this with no idea where to begin. Instead, you're using the tools you've learned the last time to re-start your program. This time, you know what you need to do AND you know how to do it!
    2448 days ago
    emoticon You realize your issues! Now work on them one day at a time. You'll get there. You have SO MANY more resources at your disposal this time around than when you were first learning. Do NOT give up!
    2448 days ago
    We can all learn from our mistakes.

    Good luck to you!! You can do it!!

    2448 days ago
    You aren't starting over from scratch... that I promise you. You've lost some progress, but you have more knowledge, more expertise, and greater drive this time. And I guarantee you that your heart and body are both stronger than they were the first time around.

    So yes, you've had setbacks... but you are NOT starting over. You're just starting anew! You CAN do this, and we're here with you.
    2448 days ago
    emoticon You have a good plan in place. You can totally do it!!
    2448 days ago
    Well said 1935MARY!
    2448 days ago
    Nice to 'see' you again!

    You're right, give up the 'all or nothing' attitude and celebrate each success no matter how big or small.
    Like you, I regained and lost muscle and tone. I don't like the way my body feels, but I'm the only one who can change it. I'm doing it, one day at a time. You can too!
    2448 days ago
    Sometimes life just gets in the way, the important thing is that you recognise it before it really is out of control. Welcome back to spark. xoxo
    2448 days ago
    Don't apologize April. I've been on and off this site for almost three years now. Weight loss is a marathon, not a sprint. Ease yourself in, don't beat yourself up.
    2448 days ago
    We are here for you. I am "re-losing" at least 10 lbs. too. We can do it though!
    2448 days ago
    Once we take our attention off our weight it will go up. Period! I DO think you can go slow and steady and I DO think it's the better, more sustainable way to go!

    I hope you will post some pictures of your flip. My husband and I used to do that too (OK, three times) and it's a lot of work but it can be pretty darn profitable.

    Welcome back, girl!
    2448 days ago
    It's a roller coaster for ALL of us! It's a delicate balance. But you have a PLAN! That's the first big thing!
    2448 days ago
    it is amazing how quickly we lose muscle but how slowly we build it. I am in the same boat as I've been sidelined for about a month with viral infection, etc. Just getting back to my routine now. emoticon
    2448 days ago
    WELCOME BACK!!!!!!! Don't worry, we are all human and I had my wake up call last month!!!!! my low 189 weighed in in Jan at 222!!! :( BUT :) Let's be positive and be thankful that we are pumping the brakes and bout to HANDLE this!!!! It is crazy just like you said, I thought I was okay, in my mind imagining my weight and thinking it wasn't so bad. When I weighed and saw how much I HAD went up and then re-looked at myself and REALLY LOOKED at myself, my eyes finally saw what was really looking back at me. I finally saw the extra weight. And whoa. When you see it, you see it lol but I am just very proud of us for catching it! We want this life, we want to be healthy and that will never change even if we struggle. I am here for you!
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  • MARYMO22
    Hi Aprilrain
    I feel your pain!
    I've also let myself slip - it's so easy to do, you think that after all the exercise you can get away with it....but all of a sudden you're back where you started!
    I have 1 friend who can tell i've gained weight, everyone else is too polite i think!

    so I'm logging in daily again, also going for the slow and steady route, you're right you can't do 4 hours exercise a day, you burn yourself out / neglect everyone you love

    I'm with you - we can do this! - we will be thinner by summer won't we?
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  • 1935MARY
    You took the first step, realizing it and you have made a plan. Now just follow through with it. Everybody back slides. Sometimes life gets in the way of things,and we let things go. Put yourself first. You have proved you can do it. Erase the pass and shoot for the stars. I am cheering for you . Good luck on the real estate classes and on your weight loss. Don't beat yourself up over it. Make today the beginning of your new way of life. emoticon emoticon
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