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Why, oh why can't I?

Wednesday, February 06, 2013

This morning started for me at 4am. Not by choice, however. I have such horrible problems with trying to get quality sleep. No matter what time I go to bed, at best, I get 4-5 hours. This wouldn't be a problem if I didn't wake up almost as tired as I was when I went to bed. I am hopeful that this change in my eating habits will also lead to better sleep. By the time 2pm rolls around I am exhausted and almost in dire need of a nap. If I take a nap, then that effects my ability to sleep at night. Its a vicious cycle lol.
My week has been busy, and yet I feel as though I have accomplished very little. I am still looking for a job. Busy doesn't really bother me.... what bothers me most is that I am constantly having to wait on someone else in order for me to move forward. Why does it always feel like something/someone is holding me back?
I have stuck to my plan this week, but I did notice that I am feeling hunger more than I have in the last two weeks. I have no idea what that's all about. I did drop a point in my daily points values....but since I was having problems working in ALL of my daily points, I don't think that's a factor. Maybe just the stress of everything else going on in my life. Sometimes I swear I feel like I am running in circles. And if that seems funny to me, even funnier than that is that even after 52 years of living life, I still fool myself into thinking that somewhere in the near future, I will not have so much stress in my life lol. Maybe life is all about stress..... I'm not sure anymore. I just try my best not to dwell on that and keep humming.....
Somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high.
There's a land that I heard of once in a lullabye.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, skies are blue.
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.
Someday I'll wish up on a star and wake up where the clouds are far behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops, away above the chimney tops..
That's where you'll find me.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, bluebirds fly, Birds fly over the rainbow..
Why then - oh, why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly beyond the rainbow,
Why, oh, why can't I?

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    I'm like you---5 hours of sleep is about the most I can get but then I am tired all day. I did find that the more I exercise, the better I sleep. I just get about 30 minutes a day and do it in 10-minute sessions. The more I do, the better I sleep. Just a thought.
    1896 days ago
    You may be struggling with sleep because of a hormone imbalance. That was my case and once I got on bio-identical hormone replacement therapy my ability to sleep through the night returned. Stress depletes your hormones and causes adrenal fatigue. You might consider seeing a hormone specialist for his/her advice.
    1901 days ago
    valerian root is good for sleep. There is alot of studies on it. It is a herb and doesn' emoticon t make you feel hang over feeling, but refreshed. You need 8 percent of the active ingredient. I could look it up in my book, if you want.
    1901 days ago
  • MARIANNE9855
    My sleep hasn't been that great but since I lost my job, I got really turned around because it didn't matter if I was up all night and I didn't have to get my son to college until late afternoon most days. Now we are back on an earlier schedule and I hope to have a job soon so I hope to sleep better. I think exercise helps you sleep better too. I have never liked getting up early since I was a kid but I do know I feel better when I do emotionally. Keep trying to see what works for you- I know naps are hard to resist- I used to say the couch was calling my name. emoticon
    1901 days ago
    Things change. God is timeless. I really do let Him be my emoticon . Not always thrilled about my get up in the morning though, but I always thank Him for patterns I do not see and understand.
    1901 days ago
  • BEEJAY49
    I have problems with the sleep too, but lately I've been doing much and on. Age can be a factor, stress, too much on your mind when going to bed. I was thinking of Oz the other day myself. Hehe! I wish we could all wish and go over the rainbow and be where we want of need to be. Sleep will come for you, hang in there! HUGS!
    1901 days ago
    Hey kiddo....have ya tried all of the usual stuff? white noise...a little work out a bit before bed....a great pillow...? I go in cycles...but, thats tha bi-polar in me, hubby has sleep issues...sleep a few hours, wake up, etc....he wont try tha above, so, I wish him well, roll over n snore, hahaha..

    I do hate waking up as if I hadnt slept at all, that really stinks...when I get in that rut, I move to me rocking reclyner with a project, and crochet till me eyes find the off button...I wake up feeling awsum!

    I hope it gets better doll!
    1901 days ago
  • JGRAY76
    Hang in there and hope you get the sleep routine figured out. That must be adding to your stress.
    1901 days ago
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