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Day 4- A New Beginning

Monday, February 04, 2013

Today I had my first day of orientation at my new job! I'm really so very excited! The facility is such a great fit for me, and for my personality. Everyone is so nice! It's going to be a very demanding, stressful job. But the company treats their employees very well and I'm happy with the salary and the benefits! You all don't even know how badly I needed this in my life right now. I feel such a great relief to have finally found a job that interests me!

I started off my day with a high protein, high fiber breakfast and was able to pass up the doughnuts and kolaches that were available for the new-hires! And I packed a healthy lunch, and was able to ignore the complimentary lunch of deep fried chicken!

I've been very nervous about starting my new career, however, and that's why I have been in an irritable mood and is probably why I've had such terrible binge-urges and weight gain.

I'm hoping that now that I've got my foot in the door and broken the ice, that I'll be able to work through my nerves and do well in my new position! I already feel so much better!

One of the highlights of my weekend was shopping for new slacks. My old slacks were literally falling off. I have NEVER been the type to enjoy shopping, because it was always been such a grueling, stressful endeavor with excess weight. But I must admit... life at a comfortable weight and size is an amazing feeling... and the shopping experience as a size 2 is so liberating, that the feeling is still very alien to me!
Also, I realized during my long day of hospital orientation that this is the first time I have ever started a job at a comfortable and healthy weight. I'm so much more confident and feel so much better in my own skin (and in my clothes!). I sat next to a lady who is the size that I was when I was at my heaviest. I felt so bad for her because I could tell how uncomfortable she was by her body language and constantly having to tug and re-adjust her clothing. It really makes me appreciate what I've accomplished... even though some days I struggle so hard to accept that I have lost the weight. Perhaps slowly, but surely, my mind is catching up with my body. I hope someday I can officially accept that I'm no longer morbidly obese!

Losing weight has saved my life in so many ways!

Here is a pic of my new slacks (size 2)!

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    That is so amazing and I am so happy for you! I can't wait for a time when I realize that I have done it. You'd never believe that sometimes I think of your story and journey when I'm having a hard time. I think about whether or not I'll give up like I have in the past and then I think, "no because if others can do it and have so much success than surely I can do it if I just keep trying and never give up" I'm sure you're right about the stress from starting a new job kind of messing with you a bit. Its great that its going so well and you're ignoring the temptations of the fattening and unhealthy foods being provided. Way to go!!!
    1932 days ago
  • OOLALA53
    I hope you can find as much peace in your eating and satiety, and not just your size. Struggling to fit a certain size, rather than the appropriate amount of food for your body and life, is one of the reasons maintenance is so hard for so many. Be sure you can distinguish between vitality and morality. emoticon
    1932 days ago
    Congratulations lady!!
    1932 days ago
  • SLEE103
    what an amazing feeling and great way to start!! emoticon
    1932 days ago
    Great article. Thanks for sharing about the cortisol. I was diagnosed with a stress syndrome as my cortisol levels are always off the charts. It sucks because even when I feel serene and calm, I can feel it coursing through my body. All other chemical levels are at or near normal levels so docs are not wanting to help me adjust the cortisol medically... It's always "reduce stressors at home and work". October 2011 saw my levels at their highest... The rage, the hair falling out, the nausea, the inflamed joints... It was the WORST! Top it with a minor heart situation brought on my personal situation and I literally thought I was going to die.
    1932 days ago
    You sexy little thang. They are fortunate to have you there and I'm sure you will inspire others to follow in your footsteps. God bless
    1932 days ago
  • CAMAEL100
    Looking great in your new size 2 slacks!!!

    Feeling good in your clothes and skin makes such a difference to confidence levels. You look great and you deserve it. You have put in the hard work and now is the time to enjoy it!

    I am sure that the job nerves will settle down as you get into it and are too busy to think of them.

    Congrats on passing the dodgy food!
    1933 days ago
    Congrats! I'm so glad you stayed on track. This really sets the tone for your relationship with food temptations at work.

    You look fabulous in those pants! I love the color!
    1933 days ago
    So happy that your orientation went well! Hopefully as you get more comfortable your stress levels will continue to drop!
    Nice pants!
    1933 days ago
  • STODD251
    You look amazing!
    1933 days ago
    YAY! Congrats on the new job!!!

    I love the new pants too... you look fantastic!
    1933 days ago
  • RUDITUDI2000
    Very exciting week for you in many ways! Congrats! emoticon emoticon
    1933 days ago
  • ERIN1957
    You have a story/journey to share now and let people see that girl that was as they see the girl who is in front of them. Tape a picture of you on your clipboard. You don't even have to say a word, unless asked. Because you know from your own past heavy people would see it as boosting. But be open to share when approached. No "fat" girl wants to hear how you made it unless they are ready. You can plant a seed with your meal choices and the picture. They will notice, we all do, we all have.
    It is a special place you are at now and empowered you are. I hear in your words...absolute ease with yourself. Marie you have made it! You have transformed in all new areas. You have changed and not only that, but moved on with your change. You have stepped out of your box and are accomplishing your full potential.
    You will be faced with some challenges as well. Here and at home. Some will not embrace your new life and confidence, as they see you as they wish they could be. SUCCESSFUL! But you will handle it and do well!
    I am so very happy for you!
    You got it all, now go enjoy it and lead by full example your beautiful blessed new you!
    1933 days ago
  • EILEEN828
    emoticon You go girl! You're a superstar! emoticon
    1933 days ago
    I can perfectly understand this relief of finding a job, especially one that you like! I'm so happy for you and I wish you all the best. Enjoy your new job, your new body, the new version of yourself, your new life! You deserve all of them!
    1933 days ago
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    1933 days ago
  • PHOENIX1949
    1933 days ago
    The slacks look great! Your smile looks even greater! Glad you feel some release. Way to go on the new job and they are blessed to have you!
    1933 days ago
    Supercute pants! Glad that you have such an enjoyable new job that will challenge you!
    1933 days ago
    You look great! Glad you were prepared with healthy meals for your first day! Would love to hear more about your new job, what you'll be doing, how you're interested, how you found it, etc.

    Great to hear the good news about shopping too!
    1933 days ago
    Congratulations! You look great and are an inspiration to us! emoticon
    1933 days ago
    You look great! And so tiny! You should be incredibly proud of yourself.
    1933 days ago
    Congratulations on your new job! Enjoy this terrific time! emoticon
    1933 days ago
  • ROCKMAN6797
    You ought to be proud of what you have accomplished! It was the result of hard work, perseverance, and determination!
    BTW, the new pants look great!
    You have got this!


    1933 days ago
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