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Day 230: I want to be an Athlete

Monday, February 04, 2013

Gosh, I am in one FOUL mood today.

I know it's all hormonal, but it's hard to pull out of a tailspin when you're in it.

Add to that the cold and feeling like a piece of beef jerky - all dry and brittle - and I'm just ornery.

This morning during my drive in to work I had the thought: I want to be an athlete.

By it's simplest defintion and Athlete is someone who is proficient at sports or other forms of physical exercise.

That definition doesn't say 'best'; it doesn't say 'fastest'; it says 'proficient.' That means someone has competency or skill. Again, nothing about being the best.

So, it kind of turns the idea of beating myself up for never being able to run an 8 minute mile on it's head, doesn't it? After all, I can be a proficient or skilled distance runner and not do it the most quickly. I can be an efficient runner. I can be a capable runner. I can most certainly be an able runner.

Being that I am such a competitive person by nature it's hard for me to get past the idea that can't be first at this. It's a mental challenge. It's taking a race and running it against myself. I'm running against that voice in my head that tries to bargain and tries to get me to stop. I'm running against the cold and the wind that tells me that if I just go back inside I'll feel better. Feeling better hasn't helped me be better at anything ever.

In other news with the hormones comes extra weight. Up an incredible four pounds this morning. I don't get it. I never will get it. I hate being a girl.

Time to go kick some butt at work... I've done enough wining for today.
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    1906 days ago
    Being a girl does suck sometimes. I always go up 4 lbs just before TOM, and it always terrifies me that this time they won't go away again and I'll just keep on going up in 4 lb increments. Curse you, womanhood.
    Also, have some hugs. *hugging!*
    1907 days ago
    I think you already are an athlete.

    And I totally get your 'beef jerky' reference. I feel that way too!
    1907 days ago
    You sound determined and what I am hearing in this message is someone who will be able to do what you want. When you feel bloated and out-of-sorts is when you need to just move, whether it is slow or fast. There are hormones produced by our amino acids that regulate weight gain and appetite. You may already know about them but I was very relieved to find an answer to my intervals of rapid weight gain. They are called Gherlin and Leptin. Gherlin is the one that causes our appetite to increase and they facilitate production of the growth hormones. Leptin is the one that decreased appetite. When you eat regulary and at breif intervals you decrease the Gherlin hormones and increase the Leptin hormones. Aerobic exercise increases the Leptin Hormones. Estrogen, lack of sleep and stress all increase Gherlin hormones. We have a proportinate amount of Gherlin hormones as the fat content in our body. Exercise reduces the fat content and therefore the Gherlin hormone.

    If you want to be more like a man then exercise like one or increase your aerobics so decrease the Gherlin that is causing your weight gain!

    Good luck!
    1907 days ago
  • COOP9002
    Sounds like are already an athlete. Nice job on the progress that you've made.
    1907 days ago
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