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feeling chunky

Sunday, February 03, 2013

I am the lightest I have been in years, I haven't gained a load of inches, my BMI is healthy (just), but I feel chunky again.

I walked passed a mirror at work, and rather than the hey I look fine and slender thought, it was just - OMG I am so wide.

All through my life I have felt fat, even when I was younger and had a 28" waist, I felt bleugh, I was borderline anorexic for a while when I was 16, I have always had poor body image.

So how to change my head, because if I am not careful I will never be happy, because I am rating some kind of appearance thing very high.

Not sure this goes anywhere, except to acknowledge - I am feeling kinda chunky.

Take care
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    I agree with Kitty, but if you find yourself feeling chunky more often than not, you may want to consider some breif counseling. And, I'm not sure what is worse! Feeling chunky and looking trim or feeling trim and finding out you are actually chunky! Today I felt rather trim and good and got weighed and gained 3 pounds! I almost passed out! But, I feel good, so.... We are often not the best judges of our own bods! Remind yourself of distorted self-image issues and that you are a strong, beautiful, perfectly sized woman! Do it daily!
    1898 days ago
    I am sad to hear that you cannot enjoy your body.... Take a breathe and look at all the positive things you can find! I have beautiful feet and great earlobes, that is the best I got!
    1904 days ago
    Acknowledging this is a good first step. I have felt the same even when I weighed 130 lbs (I was a toothpick with boobs). It takes much effort to love oneself in our world where every other media message is "lose weight", "be thin like her", "oh, now she's too fat!", "oh, look, someone gained 40 lbs.", "get a facelift", "get hair removal", "just color your hair", "get colored contacts", "get boob implants", and on and on and on. It's quite oppressive.

    Somewhere inside of you is the right message. Block all else out. Think of your wonderful attributes. We are all unique and special and beautiful.
    1904 days ago
    Yes our body perception can be very distorted, even when the numbers and our clothes say we are good. My oldest is recovering from an eating disorder and still battle body image daily. She is curvy and very muscular. She is beautiful and everyone tells me so, but she doesn't see it. She says she is chunky.

    You are right! You need to be careful. My daughter feels better about herself if she is able to work out. Maybe see if an activity can help you see how beautiful you already are. If you think it's not improving, please seek a counselor, trusted friend, coworker or someone that you can talk to. Body image is a slippery slope and I want you to stay on top!!

    1904 days ago
    I think we all have days like that. There are days when I just feel porky! I think it is normal as long as it doesn't last too long!
    1904 days ago
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