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Changes? Not Yet.

Saturday, February 02, 2013

I asked my Mother while grocery shopping yesterday if she could tell ANY difference since the beginning of the year.
She looked at me and slowly shook her head, "NO."
"But, my pants are looser", I said. "My shirts aren't as tight", I softly said.
Still, "I can't tell any difference. You look the same to me."
So I simply sighed and turned back to putting my groceries up to be scanned.

I guess I was hoping that she would say, "You sure do. Wow, you really look different."

Too soon, I guess.

I will admit I was more than a bit disheartened. Yet, I discovered that deep down inside I have found an endurance that will not allow me to quit. My patience may be tested because I haven't lost as fast as I wish BUT

While my body isn't changing as fast as I wish, my food choices have quickly changed. I now eat chicken and tuna as my choice of meat. Rarely now, do I have beef. I grew up a beef and potato gal but I'm changing. This is fairly easily accomplished at home. Not so easily accomplished eating out. I have to say that while I'm getting used to not eating out, I miss it. But, I have to be confident in what I'm eating, in what I choose to eat before I allow myself the temptation of restaurant choices.

This year I am hoping my body will have a marvelous transformation

Like what you would find in nature.

Such as what we see as an icky caterpillar (Marbled White Caterpillar)

Will eventually become transformed into the beautiful butterfly(Marbled White Butterfly)

I have faith that I will accomplish this.

Changes? Not recognizable yet, but eventually this icky caterpillar will be the most beautiful butterfly. And the warmth of the sun will allow me to spread out my wings and soar.

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    it takes 4 weeks for you to notice changes in your body, and 12 weeks for the rest of the world to notice.
    you can do it!
    2237 days ago
    My first thought in reading this was that your Mom accepts you... you are still YOU! Maybe that is what is keeping her from seeing it. Don't get discouraged! Mom's can sometimes say things that really affect us, and not in a positive way... but we must realize that they don't mean to be mean (or negative). They are just speaking their minds! Because they feel close enough to us to do so. When I got back into dancing after my divorce... I joined a flamenco group and studied for a year and then was in a performing group. Whe I was talking about how excited I was to be performing again on stage (like when I was younger), my Mom said "Do you really think people want to see someone your age up there performing?" Wow. I had to do a lot of self-talk to get that one out of my head before actually getting up there on stage!!

    Hang in there... she will eventually see you blossom... you will glow!!
    2238 days ago
  • BEEJAY49
    Keep in mind that your mom probably sees you a good bit. People who are together a lot don't notice the gradual change that happens. Yes, if your clothes are fitting better, you are doing good and I know the change is noticeable. :) You are doing so good in your choices and I'm so very proud of you! Keep up the good work! HUGS!
    2239 days ago
  • JMC155
    There are still people who do not see the change. I have one teacher who keeps telling me she can't figure out what looks different. Someday the light bulb will go off for her. Keep up the good work.

    2239 days ago
    Hey - you're right. You CANNOT get discouraged. You are making positive changes in your lifestyle to be healthier. All of the visible results will come as you keep up the good work - but I guarantee you there have been plenty of internal changes that will lead to the visible ones.
    2239 days ago
  • DEBPRE16
    I weighed 318 and now 275 and only one person noticed - she tells me I am looking good. I can tell a difference but not like a big - oh wow. So hang in there - it will come.


    2240 days ago
    emoticon As long as you can feel the difference - maybe when others start to notice you will be sooooo syked yourself the compliments will feel even better than you could have expected.
    2240 days ago
    One difference, I suspect, is that you are mentally stronger and certainly more aware than you might have been a month ago and certainly a year ago, right?

    The physical changes will come soon enough.
    Be strong!

    Make it a great day!
    2240 days ago
  • no profile photo HOTPINKCAMARO49
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    Believe in Yourself!
    2240 days ago
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