Am I a Food-a-holic?
Saturday, February 02, 2013
I am not making light of this -- I am serious. I have been in maintenance for over four years, and yet, I have specific behaviors that let me know that I am never free of the slidy slope to mindless eating. I like healthful eating and generally do eat a healthy diet. I like exercise and do it daily. But things pop in my mind when I least expect them to and that is why I always have to be “on guard”.
This is what I mean:
1) When I am sitting in a room with other people, or even in the next room and I hear the crinkle of paper or cellophane, I immediately think “candy” or “chips”.
2) I walked in a doctor’s office the other day and saw a decorative dish with bright objects in it and thought “candy”. It was full of little bright glass balls.
3) I do not buy cheezits anymore because I know I will be having them as snacks everyday instead of once in a while.
4) I need to log food, or have some other source of outside help to keep me on track. When I am not paying attention, I tend to think it is all calorie free.
I am usually disciplined enough not to give in and if I do indulge occasionally I am okay with that. I am able to not binge, because I don’t like the discomfort of being too full. I am thankful for the SparkPeople site and the teams that I am on that keep me where I am right now.
But I wonder if I will ever be like other thin persons who don’t even think of food, or who just always choose the healthy one because they like it? They seem to naturally balance things out; so if they eat more one day; they eat less the next. That is what I am aiming for; then I will know I have overcome.