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Disappointed in Myself

Saturday, February 02, 2013

I had a small blog prepared for this morning, but it will have to wait for tomorrow. I just need to scold myself and go on a little rant, and get it all out of my system so that I can move on. And I will move on. Guilt is useless. Regret is worse. Self loathing will not be allowed. I love me.

So… *deep breath*

I'm using stress at work as a big excuse these days, and I think it's pretty much a valid one for most people, right? But I have to admit to myself that it not just that.

I'm lazy.

Oh, don’t get me wrong, I work hard at work. I'm not a goof-off. And if my friends need me, I am there!

But taking care of me? Total back-burner.

I started a "new" journey here, committing to a new Day One on Dec 31, 2012. Restarted my ticker and erased all my old loss/gain info.

It's been a month now. My total loss? A whopping 3.4 pounds. Total exercise minutes? Probably less than 10. Flights of stairs walked up? 5, max. I am really disappointed In my performance. Or lack thereof. But I'm ready to get back on track now.

So please don't scold me for scolding myself. We all do that, right? A bombardment of self recriminations. I'm hoping this will be the ONE time I tell myself off, and now I can get back on track, forgive myself, and get back to loving ME.

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  • KIMBERLY19732
    1938 days ago
    Best friend? No. Actually, I'm pretty honest with my best friend.
    We laugh off mistakes ("oops!") and try to learn and move on.

    But what about a child? You need to teach your children; provide both discipline and praise, right? That's sort of what I'm aiming for here. You think I am too harsh?

    Thanks for the flowers!
    I wish I had a garden. I have a frozen north-facing balcony.
    1939 days ago
    would you treat your best friend with such total disregard?? absolutely not you care about them an d would be there... So be YOUR own best friend!!you ARE WORTH ALL THE EFFORT..... be kind to yourself emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1939 days ago
    Can the 30 min daily include going from the couch to the fridge and back, and then from the couch to the bathroom and back? From the house to the car, from the car to the office, and the same thing backwards?
    If so, I might be good.


    1939 days ago
    I was going to tell you to treat yourself they same way as you would treat your friends, but I won't.

    Get up and start moving.

    10 exercise minutes for the WHOLE month of January?
    Are you kidding me?
    5 flights of stairs?
    Are you kidding me?

    I want to see 30 minutes of exercise (minimum) every day
    and 5 flights every day.

    What are you doing sitting there reading this?
    Get up and get going.

    BTW 3.4 is good - now just keep it off...
    1939 days ago
    No I am not going to scold you for venting at yourself....sometimes it is exactly what we need to get our butts in gear!
    1939 days ago
    I totally understand. The week I had or should I say 2 days which seemed like a month made me want to scream at which some point I had to control myself. Anyway just breath & get back on the horse. emoticon
    1939 days ago
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