Overwhelmed and Frustrated

Friday, February 01, 2013

I'm so annoyed and frustrated right now. I have been so focused on getting the pannectomy surgery that I WANT that I have been avoiding a very real fact. I have a hernia. Again. That probably needs surgical repair. Again. SERIOUSLY!?!?!?! I have had this stupid ventral hernia repaired 4 times already, and have 3 meshes holding me together. It's been bulging more during exercise the past few weeks, and yesterday became very painful while doing crunches on the bosu ball.

If you don't know.... having an abdominal hernia repaired is not an easy surgery. I have a 14" scar down my tummy to prove it. It's painful with a several week recovery period. I've had infections and other complications in the past from them. This is a road I desperately hoped was in the past.

The other complication in this is that I have a surgeon I trust. Implicitly. He has done the past 3 repairs after the first failed and did quite a bit of damage in the process. And when my Cesarean got infected, he is the surgeon that my OB called in. But he has recently switched hospital providers... and I work for (and am insured through) a competing hospital. That means I will likely be referred to a different surgeon for repair. This thought is terrifying.

The only UP side is that I am in the best physical shape that I've been in since High School. Perhaps that would improve the recovery. I also want to investigate getting the pannectomy done simultaneously (I believe 100% that 17# of skin hanging is hindering the hernia repairs).

I've set up an appointment with my primary doc, and in the meantime will work to continue to lose weight and stay fit & health. THAT, at least, is in my control.
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    Wishing you the best of luck and will pray for a speedy recovery!
    1940 days ago
  • SUGAR0814
    emoticon Keeping you in my prayers! Everything will work out!!
    1940 days ago

    I'll be praying for a speedy recovery! Hang in there!
    1941 days ago
    Good luck! I hope and pray all goes well for you.
    1941 days ago
    Hope it all works out for the best for you!
    Having physical challenges while trying to get healthy can be very frustrating! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1941 days ago
    Wishing you the best in taking care of this! What a nightmare - 4 times! The bright side is that it seems logical that the pannectomy would be done at the same time...maybe it wii all work out and everything will finally be corrected.
    1941 days ago
    emoticon Hoping for the best for you.
    1941 days ago
    Hope it all works out the way you want it to. emoticon
    1941 days ago
  • MARIANNE9855
    I agree with everyone else- the hernia problem may move the needed skin problems up and you will get both done quicker- Hoping for a good outcome for you.
    1941 days ago
    Sorry to hear all that. Maybe than can do them at the same time. Hoping you can, and won't be too terrified of the new surgeon. Wishing you the best of luck, lots of hugs. And as always praying for you. I know it's got to be tough, but hang in there, you are worth every bit of it.
    1941 days ago
    I'm so sorry!

    Another thing most people do not realize is how little you are allowed to do with stitches in your abs. Unless you've been through it, you just don't realize how often those core muscles are used.

    could you ask the surgeon you DO trust for a recommendation at the other hospital? Maybe he has a colleague that he knows well.

    don't give up! You've made so much progress...don't let ANYTHING keep you from moving forward.
    1941 days ago
    Needing the hernia repair may just be something that spurs the insurance company to waive the 6 months of documentation they ordered. Hopefully they will grant the pannectomy because of the hernia. Best of luck to you!
    1941 days ago
    I can't only imagine how frustrating and painful that must be. Try not to over do it though while you are in the process of seeing a new surgeon and whatnot, you def don't want to make it worse! Good luck!
    1941 days ago
    I am sorry to hear that your hernia has returned. I had the same thought to see if you could do both surgeries at the same to save you recovery time. You will be in my thoughts as you have to make those tough decisions!
    1941 days ago
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