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Really mad at my self right now.....

Friday, February 01, 2013

Because I was feeling "sorry for my self" and sorry for my daughter who had to have two of her baby teeth pulled in preparation for her braces next month..
she had asked for Panera for lunch.. I thought ok why not I will get it to go..

I ordered our Favorite You pick two half sandwich and soup.. which is the creamy broccoli soup and half turkey... no drinks.. (got them at home) but I was told I had a "free" baked good offer.. ok.. (here is the feeling sorry for me part).. I thought yea I can handle it.. why not.....

well I just got of the parara web site where you can get all the nutrition info from any any panera product so I could put it in my tracker..

Total calories for Lunch 1000. what??? now here is the kicker to add salt to the wound.. oh sure why not.. Breakfast was high also.. because I chose to have scrambled egg, instead of poached and my daughter always likes a little cheese in it so I did and I decided to have a bagel in stead of whole wheat toast.. and I had a banana which I don't eat them as a rule because they are high in calories.. and long and behold breakfast was 575 calories so
my total calories for today is 1575 which is 25 calories over my spark limit and I have not even had dinner.. and what is worse today I was starting fresh with a 28 day challenge of

1. Drinking 10 to 12 glasses of water.. which I am doing good
2. Work out at least 10 minutes which I am going to ride my bike
3. no picking .. which I am doing well at today..

but I blew it with my meals.. and to top off this frustration.. I have been sick for the past three days, with a stomach virus.. I have been eating jello, and broth and tea, I stepped on the scale this AM and it was up 3 lbs.. really?? 3lbs.. ?...
I mean I did not eat that much jello only 6 oz cup yesterday and the day before..
of course I have not been picking.. these past 3 days.. drinking a ton of water.. and tea.. ..... I know I know I am on a rant but.. and this is soooo frustrating.. just do not know if it is worth it any more...
its how I feel.. very disappointed in my self.. really, like I am failing.. and not living up to what I say I want to do and do.. like all my hard work just turned around and said to me.. "hahahah Anita"... somebody is laughing at me that is for sure..

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    Just keep your head up.
    1930 days ago

    I can feel your frustration and your pain. However, don't let that blasted scale define you! It's only a number - it is not your self-worth. You know that you are doing everything right. Keep up the good work. There will be weeks when there is no movement on that scale -- and then all of a sudden, big change. Being sick can totally mess up your body

    Little by little, we arrive.
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    1933 days ago
    I know it can be so frustrating but just keep working your plan and you will get where you need to go. The other day I stepped on the scale and had gained 3 lbs. inexplicably (maybe there is a 3+ lb. virus going around?). Today (just one day later), I am down 3.5 lbs.
    If you just cut back a bit on calories over the next few days, you'll be able to offset a day that isn't what you wanted the calorie total to be. It is worth keeping at it because you are worth it!

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    1934 days ago
    I would not feel did well and I agree with the other comments that you had been hardly eating anything and your body needed the extra. Just get back on the bus tomorrow--err today (Since you posted this yesterday and I am just now seeing it) I have been sick the past 10 days with a nasty cold/sinus infection and my eating has been horrible. I was not drinking enough water and was stressed. When we get stressed from sickness and other things our bodies kick out a hormone that makes us hold onto the fat. I hope you feel better today!
    1934 days ago
    In all likelihood the weight gain is from all the sodium in the Panera food. Please don't give up! emoticon
    1934 days ago
    Just remember how far you have come. Blips happen for everybody and plus being sick really messes everything up.
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    1934 days ago
  • DIANN111
    I agree with the others. This is just a blip along the way. I know these things can be soooo frustrating and it can seem so hard and unfair at times. So go ahead and vent and then get right back to your plan. You are a success already! I hope you are feeling better!
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    1934 days ago
    Oh Sweetie Pie, the fact that you are so aware of the 'numbers' tells me how in control you really are!

    And those 3#? Your body was hanging on to all it's resources as it fought that nasty virus. They will be gone in NO time.

    LD was dead on target - there was a time you would not have known the calories in anything.

    I believe you are doing all the right things! Keep going! (And I'm so glad you are feeling better!)
    1934 days ago
    Jello, broth and tea for three days?!? Your body was craving some nourishment. Don't beat yourself up over 25 over, you were hundreds if not a thousand under daily for three days. I completely discount scale variations until it's repeated three consecutive times, generally over a week to ten days.
    1934 days ago
    As usual, I love your brutal honesty. But guess what, 100 pounds ago, you would not have known that you were 25 calories over for the day. So guess what! You are a success, regardless of what the old Anita creeps in and says.
    Repeat after me...I am a success! 10 times, loud and slow!
    1935 days ago
    Oh Dear....hang in there friend. The day is not can do this. You were sick and hungry. Your body probs went into starvation mode due to lack of food. You will work it off....I know you will! emoticon
    1935 days ago
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