Day 27: Self Aware

Friday, February 01, 2013

Being Self Aware doesn't mean you focus your attention on all the bad stuff in your life. It means identifying the bad, like a detective, and working to make it better. Keep your thoughts neutral, neither good or bad, and just gather the facts. then use those facts logically to make yourself better. Step outside yourself a little, and assess a situation like a good friend rather than like your internal enemy.

Currently I am trying to figure out why I have so many issues with eating at home. I am awesome all day... Breakfast protein shake, mid-morning snack, salad for lunch, afternoon snack, and tons of water! I'm fine all day. Then I get home, and it's sabotage time... Crap for dinner, or snacking at 9 or 10pm. Currently because I don't have bad stuff in the house, it's relatively low calorie, or healthy whole foods, and I still stay close to my calorie range, but it has me concerned. What will I do when I have a high calorie item in the house? Will I go crazy and eat 3 or 4 servings instead of just one? If someone makes me Gluten Free Christmas cookies, will I be able to just eat one, or will I eat the whole box? Yes, I know there are temporary fixes for these problems, like keeping that stuff out of the house, or take the cookies to work where you have more control... but my real question is Why do I have this issue?

Being self aware, to me, means I notice these things about myself and then I work to make them better. I don't beat myself up about it because I know I can and will change it. I don't talk bad to myself because that is an old habit that doesn't serve any purpose. Instead, I'm putting it out there, to see if I can find the reason behind this phenomenon...

Actually, just writing this all down, I can see one difference. At night I'm alone, my guard is down, and I am not busy. At work I am talking all day, my mind and my hands are busy, and my guard is up because everyone can see what I eat, etc. At home it's just me... I am adding this to my prayer list, and starting my visualizations right now...

I'm visualizing myself busy at home (painting, organizing, singing, etc.) and I'm surrounded by people (visitors, friends, boyfriend?, phone calls, etc.) and holding myself accountable (create a plan for night time meals.. I pack my lunch & snacks and have a plan for the day. Why not pack a dinner and snack and a plan for night too?)

Ok, well I feel better already. I hope you can stop and do some detective work on yourself as well. Don't forget to be neutral, and don't beat yourself up... You are an amazing person, with a lot to offer the world... Be a friend to yourself; She(he) needs you!

Thanks everybody,
have a happy healthy day!
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    Recognizing you nighttime habits is a great first step. Make SP part of your evening routine when you do not have an activity or if there is a particular time were you start thinking about food, get ahead of it and log in.

    You have come so far in a short time! Great job!
    1961 days ago
    Great post, Nancy. I used to struggle with, "If I want to lose weight so badly, why don't I ever REALLY do anything to move toward it?" It does feel different this time, and I think the blogging/journal approach really helps with the analysis. I like the idea of using visualization tools too. All great coaches say to do that.

    You're doing it!
    1962 days ago
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