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February Focus

Thursday, January 31, 2013

I truly wish I knew what is wrong with me. Today I was up and down all day on an emotional roller coaster. I think it was mostly fatigue induced. I was tired, and it's truly hard to stay "up" and "on plan" when you are tired. But what can you do? You have to get up and go to work. You can't just stay in bed and sleep until you're rejuvenated. So, it was a hard work day for me mentally...but on the outside, it was a good day. I got a lot done. I dealt well with all of my clients. I went out to lunch with my co-workers. This evening, I went out to dinner with DH. It's cold...and I got chilled. When I came home, I took a hot bath. I'm all warm now. I'm not hungry at all. I definitely had too much to eat today though I have not had a binge...just a supper that was too large and one snack that was totally unnecessary.

I think after this blog I will enter my food and see what it actually tallies up to. I have a pretty high tally in my head and I've gotten extremely good at sizing up my I really do know what is too much.

I really want to be on track. I really want to lose weight. My weight gain is my biggest source of unhappiness right now. So why don't I kick it to the curb? I don't know. It's just my weakness. I'm not doing well with it. I have been extremely unsuccessful in stringing together any consistency. And here I thought consistency was always my strong point. Ugh. that's where I'm at. Now...plan for the next 24 hrs. 1. Get 8 hrs of sleep. 2. Eat a 300-calorie breakfast. 3. Eat a 500-calorie lunch. 4. Eat a 500-calorie supper. 5. Have a 100-calorie snack. Track it all. Think positive thoughts. Stay warm. Rinse and Repeat.

Seriously, it doesn't sound that hard. It isn't. It's just the emotions that I've been fighting that are knocking me off course. Maybe the positive thinking will squelch the negative thoughts and emotions that have been plaguing me. I need that. That is "what is wrong with me." Hmmm. So, if I can win that fight, I can eat on plan without feeling the need to go to my "comfort eating zone." Hmmm. Okay. So, focus for the next 24 hrs the the things that keep me "up"...sleep...stay warm...think positive thoughts...have some fun. I can do that. I think I can I think I can.

Hope you all had a great last day of January. we come! Let's make it a great one! We can do this! Spark on! emoticon emoticon
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    Hope you are doing okay
    Haven't seen you around lately.
    1955 days ago
  • SHARON10002
    I'm right there, too! Cathy - take it one day at a time. Don't look back; that's not the direction you want to go, and it's so overwhelming. When we look back, we're usually focused on what we did wrong, and our inner critic starts ranting and raving. Keep your focus on forward movement - from this moment on. Baby steps - even though they're small and "seem insignificant", you still cover a lot of distance.
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    1962 days ago
    I'm sick and on a roller coaster too but I believe in the saying that sometimes it is darkest before the dawn and that we will reap a huge reward if we stick it out and don't give up. I'm hoping that is the case. I'm ready for a change in luck and for less stress, better sleep, and WANTING to eat and exercise.
    1962 days ago
  • 2BEHEALTHY2014
    Take things one day at a time. You're making great progress, try not to
    let one day discourage you.

    1963 days ago
    Oh Cathy you are not alone. We all have these lazy, I don't wanna get up and do what ever days. I too have been in stuck mode. This is a new month . We can do this. You can do this!! Woo Hoo ! Bring it on! Have a great weekend!
    1964 days ago
  • DS9KIE
    I know you can do it. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1965 days ago
    You & I are stuck in the same place Cathy! I'm singing your tune honey! I've been saying "What's wrong w/you?" to myself these last few days cause it takes me FOREVER to get back on track! I just don't get it! We know what we gotta's not rocket science...& yet, here we are, struggling!

    All I can say is's a brand new day! So, we set out w/good intentions & take it from here! We CAN do this!!!

    emoticon GO US!!! emoticon
    1965 days ago
  • KONRAD695
    I know exactly what's wrong with you!! Nothing, you're human. You've been eating better and taking off weight for over a year and a half, correct? That is a successful run. REALLY it is. Don't even think of the last whatever days, everyone gets the hiccups. Tomorrow when you wake up, it will be tomorrow, not yesterday. So you start a new streak. Just make it until noon and you'll be half way through the first day. Try one more step and make it 1 PM, then try another step....etc.....

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    1965 days ago
    Here's to Fabulous February!! I'm in. We can do it!
    1965 days ago
    You can do it! Just keep swimming........:) Hugs!
    1965 days ago
    It's sometimes hard to stay on track this time of year....comfort foods abound and the cold (at least where I live) makes outdoor exercise unappealing.

    But if we MAKE ourselves stick to the plan, we'll get the results we so desperately want. I know I can do it....and I know you can too. Let's GO!
    1965 days ago
    You have a plan and you can do it! Don't beat yourself up....that just makes it harder. Just do your plan! You can do it!
    1965 days ago
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