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Wednesday, January 30, 2013

I've been feeling so proud of myself, working out and tracking calories meticulously then WAM! out of nowhere, this overwhelming need to eat a bunch of snacks last night. I wasn't having a more stressful day than any other, the scale moved, I worked out and I ate my dinner. I hopped on SP and read some articles etc. I made my lunch for today (recipe at the end), closed the kitchen so to speak and settled in to watch one of my shows from the DVR.

At about 8p.m. I started feeling for a snack. I knew I wasn't hungry, I had only eaten dinner an hour or so before (1 cup brown rice and 1 baked chicken thigh) so I tried to ignore it and sip some water. I am now drinking 12-14 cups per day by the way. My knee ached a little from slipping when I cleaned the snow Monday night so I tried to focus on massaging the area.

I found myself thinking about how far I still had to go and wondering and doubting if I would make it. Suddenly, I was wandering in the kitchen. I had an ounce of cheese and started opening all the cabinets. I stopped myself and returned to the family room and started reasoning with myself. The conversation sounded like this.

Today, after 3 weeks of watching your eating and working out, you lost 10lbs. You can do this, it hasn't been hard. You actually like the energy you have the rest of the day when you work out in the morning. You're going on vacation in March, surely, you want to keep this up to reap the reward of looking better at the beach! You need to do this or you're staring weight loss surgery in the face and you don't want to go there. You have to have resolve. Just make it through tonight and tomorrow and will be better. And so on and so on.

That helped a lot, I didn't snack and I decided to go to bed early. I woke up this morning with some of the same feelings but I didn't succumb. I worked out, drank my protein shake (Muscle Milk) and headed out the door. I could have used yesterday as the 1 day per week that I slack off a bit but somehow I felt that if I did, it wouldn't just be one day. I don't know how I'm getting through the next few days, please tell how you manage these period.

What do I think brought this on?

Last night, I spent some time online reading about whether I should be eating my workout calories back and trying to calculate my BMR and daily calorie needs to see if it matched SP and Myfitnesspal's recommendations.

I feel like the 2lbs I gained (water weight) in the first day of cycle last week Monday never really left even though it's been a week so I had to re-lose those.

I started thinking of the rest of my week, it's a minefield:

Today, I have an evening board meeting, they serve dinner and it's always heavy. I'm praying it's not the seafood lasagna the Chairman likes, I have to try to skip if it is and if it isn't, I plan fill my plate with salad and take a few ounces of protein.

Tomorrow night, I'm taking a client to dinner, they picked a nice italian restaurant, I've been there a few times, there isn't much on the menu that fits what I'm trying to eat. This client likes to have a 4 or 5 course meal. I figure I could have tomato with fresh mozzarella for an appetizer, house salad with dressing on the side and skip the croutons and the cheese, get the chicken on the bone with peas and carrots for an entrée and only eat 1/2 (it's a huge portion, almost 1/2 a chicken, browned on the stove then finished in the oven), beg off from a calories bomb dessert and take a coffee with biscotti and skip any wine.

Friday, I'm taking one of my mentee to lunch. This one is still a grad student so the general routine is that I take her to a nice restaurant when we meet once per quarter. That's much easier foodwise, she eats like a bird and I can order a salad without feeling like I'm forcing her to do the same. I find they try to mimic whatever the mentor is eating or at least stick to the price range but this is my third year mentoring her so I think she's comfortable enough ordering what she really wants.

I think I panicked.

I need a lot of encouragement today, sigh. emoticon
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    Thank you for the support and encouragement
    1938 days ago
  • UMBLAH21
    It is ok, we all get the snack urges sometimes. I have found that fruit, veggies can help satisfy that crunch. Or pickles if you are wanting something salty (plus pickles have no calories). If you are just feeling like you have to eat something, opt for something healthy.....oatmeal...dry cereal... fruits or veggies. Even if you go over your calories a little, you can feel good about the healthy calories.

    When I get a sweet tooth, I like to have Nerd, Chewy sweet tart minis, or jujubees.

    Nerds- 2 TBS have 60 calories....that's like 200 Nerds. Seriously.

    Chewy Sweet Tarts: 20 have 50 calories

    Jujubees: 20 have 50 calories.

    You are doing great, dont sweat it. Much Love

    1938 days ago
    10lbs?? That's amazing! This is hard. And it will sometimes feel hard and impossible, but it isn't! You can do this. Some days will be better than others. You'll have times when you finish at your minimun and wonder why it feels so easy, and times where you finish at your max and you feel ravenous. It's ok, because it all evens out in the long run.

    The most imporant things in all of this is to be stubborn and keep on going. I am so proud of you for talking yourself out of snacking last night. That's HUGE! I know what it feels like to be a zombie in the kitchen and "wake up" to an armful of snacks and wonder why you're doing it. The fact that you were able to pull back, think about it, and not give in is amazing!

    I think you have a great plan for the client dinner. Capresse salads are a favorite of mine. The cheese can pack a lot of calories, but it's all fresh& healthy food. Honestly, alcohol with a meal is such a downfall for me. I always end up eating more if I've had something to drink, so I think skipping the wine is a really smart move. The chicken sounds very healthy!

    Since you know these events are coming up, you have plenty of time to come up with an attack plan for the rest of your day. You can make the calories work! I drink Muscle Milk for breakfast too :D It's great! That means if you have a light lunch those days and try not to snack too much, you can follow a healthy plan at dinner and not worry too much if you go over a little, since you took it easy in the morning.

    You got this!!!
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    1938 days ago
  • CYND59
    Do not beat yourself up over it. Try and keep healthy snacks available. Get rid of all "junk" food that can sabotage you. No one is perfect, especially me, but we just have to learn from our mistakes.

    1938 days ago
  • MJRVIC2000
    Often, these snack attacks is because even though we have eaten an hour ago, we did not eat healthy foods that satisfy the body. You might want to look at what You are eating to see if there is sufficient nourishment there. God Bless YOU! Vic.
    1938 days ago
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