I did it.
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
I quit. Today was my last day at school. It was a VERY hard decision but it was something that I needed to do. I have lost the passion to teach and as much as I love working with people with disabilities, I couldn't physically or mentally do it anymore. After 7 years of teaching, I felt like it was time to leave the classroom. Every year I felt like a brand new teacher, due to all the needs of the students. I had no curriculum to pull from and had to think of everything myself. Every year. It was too much. I never thought that I would leave teaching but the time has come. There have been many days that I think, "Did I do the right thing?" "Could I have finished out the year?" but I know I made the right decision. Leaving half way through the year does have some repercussions but it is worth it. My health was going down hill and I knew I needed to focus on me. Luckily, my school admin was wonderful and very supportive. They said that would help me out in anyway they could in the future. It is bittersweet and definitely doesn't feel like my last day. Who knows, I may be in the classroom again some day but for now I need to see what else is out there for me. My husband has been SO WONDERFUL throughout all this. He was the first person to tell me to quit. It will be a change but I hope to relax for a bit and then get back into the workforce. I am really excited to go back home for a bit and see family and friends. I haven't been happy for quite some time and many people have noticed. It is my time to shine and I am excited to see what the future has in store for me!