Stop being afraid

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

My motivation seems to come in cycles - I do really really great for while and I start to see results, then my motivation fails. I get down in the dumps, I have no energy - and each day that goes by that I fail to exercise I go more and more into a downward spiral. Depression? Seasonal Disorder? Bored / burned out with my routine? Maybe - but I think it's more than that.

I think I'm afraid. Afraid to fail. I'm afraid that I'm not going to reach my goal and so I tell myself, "Why bother?" Each time I went into this funk, I had reached a goal - back in Oct - Nov, I finally lost a pound - the very next week, BAM, no motivation. This time around, I lost 4.5 inches and 1 pound - days later, BAM - no motivation. And I hear that voice all time in my head - that negative, negative, negative voice throughout this time - it gets louder and louder as the days go by without exercise - telling me, "Why bother, you're not going to make it, you're going to fail, save yourself the trouble, you're just going to fail." It doesn't start out negative - it starts slowly, draws me in with it's coaxing - "missing one day won't matter," "Those chips / sweets / etc" won't make a difference," "You've had a long, hard, stressful day - take a break & skip the gym tonight." The longer I go without exercise, the more my motivation falls, and the louder and abusive that voice gets.

Well, no more. I need to silence the critic in my head - my own worst enemy. I know I can do this. I know I can succeed; and I know I can do it right and be healthy. I cut ties a long time ago with negative, abusive, manipulative people that just suck / drain the energy out of you - it's time I do the same with that voice.

I can do this. And I won't be afraid of failure anymore.
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    You can do it! It is hard, but once you get past the negative voice and listen to the positive one it gets easier and easier! You have it, just keep looking forward! I work at not being afraid each day, but the benefits have been wonderful when I am not emoticon .
    2267 days ago
    Great post. Yes, silence that naysayer! You can do it!

    2268 days ago
    It's great that you can recognize the voices. That's the first step in ignoring them.
    2270 days ago
    that voice sounds way too familiar!!! Don't listen, don't obey... you can do it, WE can do it!!!
    2271 days ago
    Great post! I needed to read this! Thanks for sharing.
    2271 days ago
    Good for you. I think telling that voice to shut the H E double hockey sticks UP is good :) Cause you CAN do it! WAY TO GO!
    2271 days ago
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