The first step

I've joined two challenges that I'm honestly, not sure if I have time to complete. While I'm typing that sentence, the other part of my brain is telling me that that is the exact reason why I signed up. About a year ago, I let my weight get away from me when I was learning to get over my anorexia. It was difficult because I gained two pants sizes and about 15 lbs. I tried using SparkPeople back then, but It was for all the wrong reasons. After this year of hard work, I know I am ready to conquer this demon once and for all.

I have so much to deal with as far as school and work are concerned, I visualize myself really trying to get everything done and go to a gym, but I always end up talking myself out of it in order to sit at home. It's so easy for me to give up and I lack the motivation to keep moving forward.

I want to see if I can manage this without any additional therapy. I've learned a lot more about eating right and I'm starting to keep that routine in check. With these challenges I've signed up for, I feel as though I can see the progress of others, see their stories and hopefully one day be able to post one of my own.

I know I have healed enough to uncover my mirrors and put my scale back out, but I am just overweight for my size. I miss being active. There isn't a day that goes by where I don't obsess over my weight. But between school and work, I hardly have time to devote to exercise. I'm going to do my best to keep up with this. I anticipate almost failing a few times during this process, but as long as I keep coming back, that is all that matters.

let's do this.