933 calories is not a binge...
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
And repeat, 933 cals does not a binge make! I think I have a problem. I freaked...and I'm not using that word loosely, I really did freak out last night. I was reading a thread about pb&j and I had the worst craving for pb. So I ate two slices of low cal bread, 80 cals, 1 tbs of peanut butter 90 cals and a glass of soy milk 100 cals. Which put me at 933 calories for the day when I've been averaging 650. I almost cried.
Then I started plotting how to undo the damage. Water fast tomorrow, exercise for two hours, perhaps drink some senna tea...I'm happy to say I woke up feeling much calmer and a bit nervous. I've had comments that I'm not eating enough...I've steadily nodded my head, then ignored all these well meaning people.
But it's time I admit it too. I'm not eating enough. Now does that mean I'm going to eat 1200 calories today...probably not, but the first step is admitting you have a problem right? So I'll work on this. I don't know how, but at least I'm self aware after last nights nonsensical panic attack.