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27/365 The Past & Future Me

Monday, January 28, 2013

If I could go back in time and give advice to myself I wouldn't,
As much as I've been thru the molestation as a child; being raped as a teen; having my children young; the domestic violence from my first marriage (including being held hostage n him trying to kill me) and then there is ALL of the health issues. No I wouldn't go back to give advice or to change anything. You may think I'm crazy (well I m a little bit but not cause of this) BUT seriously if anything changed even in the way I think - it would change who I am today.


Now as to the future me (thanx to my friend Pixie) I periodically send my future self a letter; it helps to remind me how far I've come.

I have a long way go in my journey BUT I think I've already learned my most valuable lesson HONESTY. To move forward in life to really move forward in life I have to be honest. Honest about who I am & why I m the way I m & about who I want to be.


I needed to do a dream board; never been good @ these. As much as I love my crafts dream boards n motivational type boards are my downfall. Then I realized I was just thinking too much; my dream board is real easy - its just pictures. Pictures of my family blood as well as others. So hanging in my home there are 2 picture frame collages - pictures of happy times. My dream is for my love ones to be happy.

What will change when I reach my goals - NOTHING. Cause this journey will never end; this is my life. Well there will be one change I will be physically more healthy. I dont want to be skinny I just want to be healthy

1) Why - to get healthy n watch my grands grow up especially the one that I m raising
2) to be able to take care of myself w assistance ( dress myself )
3) I need to contiually push myslef to do things that are difficult; even if it means finding new or different ways
I schedule my gym time; so that it gets done
shop more often to have healhtier n fresher foods
I also pre cook most of my meals; a crock pot of soup evey weekend;
when I lose 20 lbs - lighten my hair
when I lose 50 lbs mani/pedi;
when I lose 75 lbs ? when I lose 100 lbs ?
4) action plan done

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    You have your life in your hands, and they are mighty and steady. I think you are great
    1909 days ago
    Our lives have traveled similar paths. All of our trials just make us stronger!
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    1909 days ago
  • PICKIE98
    Honesty is so right! Actually, if you asked people if they would change lives with you or another person, FOREVER, they would most likely say no.. Never see my grandpa or sister or best friend again?
    Pain helps us remember, but also forget..
    1910 days ago
  • OJ_2_OK
    Thank you for sharing your story. Its very inspirational. And I'm honored to be on the same team as you! As for your rewards, they sound fantastic, but you should do smaller ones along the way! Those are large gaps that will take a lot of work! You deserve it!
    1911 days ago
    Great blog.
    You have been through a lot, you are strong!
    1911 days ago
  • DAISY443
    You are a wise woman! Congrats on your brave journey!
    1911 days ago
  • 36ROCK
    You are a Surivor! Our past shapes us into the people we are today. Keep believing in yourself your doing a great job!
    1911 days ago
    What a great blog and it sounds like you have come a long way. It's better to be healthy than thin. Sounds like you have a great plan in place!

    1911 days ago
    What a beautiful sentiment - and I'm glad you wouldn't change yourself. I often think that we came to earth knowing some of the tragedies and struggles and we take it on because 1. We're tough and can handle it, 2. God trusts us to "get 'er done", and 3. because for whatever reason those experiences make us into a person with a divine destiny. Good for you on realizing the joy in the journey! :) You can do it!
    1911 days ago
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