Finding what makes me tick (eat)
Monday, January 28, 2013
I have found that whenever I am feeling overwhelmed I want to eat -and it’s not healthy stuff I crave. I want chocolate, pizza, anything greasy or sweet I can get my hands on. I’m not sure if the feeling of being full is what helps or if it’s the feeling of being in control. Why do I get like this?
Today we had to take one of our cats to the vet and we really thought we were going to lose him. It was mostly disheartening was that we would be able to save his life if we had enough money. I felt beyond horrible that because I do not have the money to care for him, therefore he would have to die. The surgery was going to be over 1200 – which we do not really have. By some miracle though, he pulled through, and it ended up being only a couple of hundred. It really scared me though because the problem can occur at anytime again!
After the incident and after many tears all I wanted to do was eat and I wasn’t necessarily hungry. I mostly prevented it. We ended up going to the dreaded MCD but I only got a small cheeseburger with no fries or drink. After several hours passed my husband wanted pizza and I caved in.
I weighed myself today and I am 284.8 which still means I am on target for my weight loss despite my lack of exercise and eating properly. I am still feeling kind of down today which I hope passes.
I am not trying to turn this blog into one where I whine and stuff. It’s just that, lots of times, being overweight is linked to emotional problems. This journey is going to be very emotional so it’ll be nice to keep in check my emotions and feelings going through this journey. Lots will be happy times and many will be sad. I hope you (whoever reads this) enjoys taking apart of this journey with me. I hope I can look back on this someday and get an idea how much I went through on this journey and when I went through what – if that makes sense.
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