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Saturday, January 26, 2013

The relationship of aspects of a subject to each other and to a whole--I NEED perspective!

I don't know where exactly I'm going with this, but I'm feeling so, so bad about myself with 20#'s to lose, and absolutely no inclination for embracing healthier eating & exercise.

On this date I was ECSTATIC to be the weight I am right now!

I felt good about myself, and was energetic, and HAPPY! Today, at the SAME weight, I feel defeated and hopeless! I have gotten some good suggestions from team members on ways to 'get my motivation back': journal in order to identify the root problem, look at before/after pictures, exercise WITH a team member [even if we live in different states, we'll be exercising at the same time], and to 'give myself a break' since I have much on my plate and I will get it together again--basically be kind to myself! GOOD SUGGESTIONS!

Well, onward and upward…right!!!!!

Have any of you heard of Shari Rose Shepherd [ ]

She posted this on facebook today: "Today Jesus we say I do and I will love you for better or for worse. In times of sickness and times of health. In times of trials and in times of triumph. From this moment on, I choose you Lord and will not walk away until you walk me into your presence. Amen"

This is MOST definitely the prayer of my heart today!

Another quote I need to EMBRACE right now: "Never, never, never give up. Act as if it were impossible to fail." ~Alexander Lockhart

I'm sure I'm semi-struggling emotionally because Jonathan left for bootcamp on Tuesday. Nicholas and Andrew went back to college on Monday, and Nate left Tuesday to head home after being here for almost a month. I MISS my boys! But it's sure different cooking for SIX instead of TEN! emoticon That part I'm kind of enjoying! ha!

Well, I guess that's enough ramblings for today.
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    emoticon Be kind to yourself and take things one day at a time. It's all going to be just fine. You know I am pulling for you. Sending hugs and prayers. emoticon
    2211 days ago
    I'm sorry you are struggling so much. I do understand. I have struggled with lack of motivation for close to a year now. The know how is there, just not the want to. I have just been plugging along, one day at a time, doing the best I can. You are in my prayers. emoticon
    2211 days ago
    As you so often do, continue to give all your cares, worries, and anxieties to God. He wants them and he wants you to enjoy the beautiful creation he created around and in you. It's amazing what peace and great hope we begin to experience when we give it all up to Him. Yes, this is easier said than done, as humans, we sometimes love to wade in muddy waters because of our sinfulness, but He doesn't want you to stay there!

    Another friend of mine often writes: I refuse to let people walk through my mind with dirty feet. Perhaps we need to include our own self-talk here. (ref: Mark 6:10-11) We truly need to learn how to quit being our own worst enemy.

    For me, getting the focus off my self talk and on to both prayer and ways we can bless others, makes all the difference in the world Hug, hug, my dear! -- Evelyn
    2212 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/28/2013 1:09:46 PM
    Sending big Susie2Susie emoticon your way. I agree on the need for Perspective. And I want to encourage you to remember that God will COMPLETE the good work He has begun in you!
    2212 days ago
    Susan, try not to beat yourself up....set little goals and go from there...One day at a time.
    You have Jesus in your heart, you have a lovely have come such a long way in your weight loss/ healthy lifestyle....You are not a failure. You are a child of the most High King!
    Cast all your cares upon Him. Praying for you my dear sister... emoticon
    2212 days ago
    And you may have forgotten to throw in some hormonal stuff there too! emoticon
    2213 days ago
    Your message was just what I needed this morning, thanks!
    2213 days ago
    Hugs - we all have our struggles but here on Spark People we find so much of the positive support. Iti is hard when our family is home and then they all leave - I miss my girls so much too - can't wait to see them all next month!
    2213 days ago
    emoticon for your "empty house syndrome". Patience, perspective, yes... and breathing.
    2213 days ago
    No wonder you're in a funk if all your boys left! Give yourself time to adjust and you'll be right back at it.
    2213 days ago
  • OOLALA53
    You'll get your mojo back. Do your best to eat moderately no matter what. Eating well makes everything easier to manage.
    2213 days ago
    I love that quote, it reminds me of a song by Billy Joe Royal that says, "The bad times make the good times seem better". emoticon
    2213 days ago
    Love that prayer by Shari. Thanks for sharing that. He will pull you thought and we can do this together sis.
    2213 days ago
    When He brings you to it, he will pull you thorugh. What seems like a mountain will be nothing but a climb tomorrow. Hang in there. All your boys being gone is HUGE. It will get better. emoticon Once the stress decresses so will the weight. emoticon
    2213 days ago
    Susan your blog has basically spelled out the solutions to all the obstacles you are facing right now and I believe you will get those twenty pounds back off.

    I sure understand missing your boys. I got a letter from mine at bootcamp yesterday and he is so homesick (he said he cried a little at chapel service) and he had to re-write a letter cuz it got soaked with tears....boy do I miss him. Words really can't express it.

    We will do this because God is helping us each step along the way.

    I have heard of Shari and I believe she wrote a book that I have read if it's the same gal I am thinking of.

    Hang in there Susan.....

    2213 days ago
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