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Saturday, January 26, 2013

Well, I realized I have been lying to myself. Yes, my weight does matter to me. I did a good job of being a mom even if I have a weight problem. We did lots of great things. I still go places and do thing. No the weight does not stop me.

HOWEVER, I just started to work. I am working in the schools that my kids attend. I feel self conscious. My kids have not said anything hurtful to me. The teachers have not said anything hurtful or mean and certainly the students are not being mean. BUT, the things that I say in my head about myself are not acceptable.

If I am honest I am not putting my best self out into the world when I feel like this inside. So it is time to be honest with myself and look at the importance of the extra food that has gotten me here. I need to really pay attention to my food choices and my exercise.

But, I am very happy that my kids are still kind and I am committed to working on this and having a great journey. Now I know.
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    Groan. My daughter did the opposite and said that I am obsessed with the scale. These voices... in our heads or from others... we have to sit down and decide what to do about them. My first reaction to the "voice" was panic, belief that it must be true. What is true is that I need to lose weight. For my diabetes, for my knee replacement, and for the comfort in my body.

    I am choosing each day, to exercise and make good food choices. One small step at a time. That is why I am here. Why I need support from others. Planning my food sure helps. I know you can do this.

    1969 days ago
  • NANCY-
    What a glorious opportunity.
    I truly understand about being self-conscious, but doing what you need to do for you will set a wonderful example for the children. By taking care of you ... it will inspire children that they can take care of themselves too and make healthy choices.
    Show them!
    1970 days ago
  • TEDYBEAR2838
    Also, start saying great things about you.

    God didn't make NO JUNK!

    1971 days ago
    I know your kids are proud of you, but YOU will be proud of you when you feel good about your weight.

    I love your emphasis in "wanting to put your best self out in the world". That's such a positive message to give yourself. emoticon
    1971 days ago
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