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Quick to stay; slow to go

Saturday, January 26, 2013

I'm so dreading my weigh-in tomorrow! I've had a good week but somehow my body is clinging, desperately clinging to the fat and is unwilling to let it go. emoticon

I can't possibly have come to....

Oh no. I haven't reached a plateau yet. It's knowing that it's going to happen that bothers me. My best friend and I discussed this just this morning. Why is it that our bodies will cling to fat almost like it's glue but DOES NOT want to release it? We hit plateaus, we gain, but to lose, we have to fight like we are fighting the devil for our souls! I can go and obviously have gone years of very little change in weight, but let me try to lose that weight and "OH NO YOU'RE NOT" this fat body shouts! This weigh-in I am dreading because I believe my fat cells have put out their grubby little paws and scooped up more. The scale will show an increase, I just know it! I would rather have not lost any than to have gained!
Waaaa emoticon

My body seems to just lllloooooovvveeee it's fatness. I don't. As easy as it is to gain the weight, which is pretty darn easy, it likewise should be as easy to lose the weight. At least that's my thinking. But it's not. It's eating differently. It's incorporating exercise into my daily routine. It's not drinking Mt. Dew and McDonald's Sweet Tea every day. Yes, I'm still upset about that.

Being knowledgeable about calories doesn't make going out to eat any fun either. Knowing that my plate of food has the caloric and fat content of several days worth of meals is beyond upsetting. No wonder we are a country of fatties! I love to have a good hamburger and french fries but to get it from a restaurant, I wouldn't be able to eat for the rest of the week! Even boxed meals, the add your own meat kind, are high in fat, in calories, and definitely sodium. I fixed myself one this week and blew my sodium content completely off the charts.

I feel like there's nothing good out there for me to eat. What I like isn't good for me. What I dislike is. Fat is quick to stay and slow to go. The fat within this body has overstayed it's welcome. I want it to go but I feel like I'm definitely in a fight with the devil for a healthy, slim body.

Who will win?
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  • BEEJAY49
    You will definitely win! :) Getting started is the hard part of our journey and you've already done that. It's okay to go out and eat, just be mindful of what you order, and you can always ask for a box to bring half of it back home. I do agree though that fast food like McDonald's leaves a lot to be desired and that's probably what makes us want it all that much more. It takes a lifetime of unhealthy habits to get us to this point, so it stands to reason it takes a bit of time to undo all those bad habits. The good news CAN DO THIS! Love you! HUGS!
    2213 days ago
    hang in there, friend. for me, this journey (over 2 years, now) has been taking one thing at a time, and making it a habit...a change that will allow me to eventually be healthy. (i've given up on "thin). when i've got that under my belt, move on to the next healthy habit. i never could have imagined that i would CRAVE healthy food, and be repulsed by what used to be my normal diet, that a few days without exercise (unless i'm sick) would make me really cranky and unhappy. the first time i went out for dinner after counting calories, i cried. then i didn't go out for a LONNNGGG time. i've learned what restaurants are good for me, and what to avoid (like shari's!), to check the menu before i go so i'm prepared. it gets easier, you learn, you adapt, and along the way you become someone you never knew you could be. emoticon
    2213 days ago
    also have you tried stevia in ice tea? can get the MCds unsweeted and then add your own packet for the sweet :)
    2213 days ago
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