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Saturday, January 26, 2013

I thinned my friend list this morning, removing those I don't see, who have never communicated with me, or who have dropped off the face of SP.

Then I went to the gym, had a great cardio workout and took my BP. It's up. No big surprise. My eating this week has been terrible. Last night I bought a pint of ice cream and ate almost half of it. After eating an enormous dinner and pizza for lunch. This morning I got rid of the ice cream and have the nerve to wonder why my BP is borderline hypertensive. Really? Yeah.

This post is for accountability, not for sympathy. I know what I need to do. My head's just not in the right place and unfortunately, no one can "fix" it but me. Feel free to shake your head and cluck your tongue. I've done it myself. "The solution is so simple. Why can't she just DO it?" At least I'm still checking in every day, reading your blogs and haven't given up entirely.
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    We all have days we fall off! Most important, you are realizing when you are getting yourself right back up!

    You are doing great~ don't beat yourself~ look at the positive, you threw away the ice cream!

    1905 days ago
    glad to see i am still there......
    i must get back , i must get back, i must gt back, 5K is this weekend I will do it!
    1905 days ago
    1. Glad i am still ur friend...yeah I made the list!
    2. your right you CAN do this
    3. Just keep trying and when you fall off just get right back on like you have been doing
    4. your doing great keep motiovated (short term goals work for me)

    1907 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/28/2013 2:57:35 PM
    "Why can't she just DO it?" Ugh, I hate that kind of thought. My ex-husband used to do something similar with my bouts of depression. "Well, why can't you just get OVER it?" It's hard for some people to see the emotional ties that keep us from "just doing" something. We know what to do, but it's so much more complex than that.

    We're just glad you are here. I think it's great you exercised. You may not have done well with your food choices, but sometimes all we can do is fight one battle at a time. Just think about why you made those food choices and see if anything triggered them and how you could combat it differently next time. You may not always be successful in doing that, but at least you are acknowledging the bad with the good.
    1907 days ago
    I've definitely had several days/weeks like that! The important thing, like many have said, is that you threw away the ice cream, and aren't hiding it. Its worse when you hide it and takes a lot more courage to admit to doing it. Just keep your head up and keep moving forward! Its all you can do from here on out!
    1907 days ago
    I'm all for thinning friend lists-- I want to keep my life filled with active relationships... when I have too many friends, it's too easy to lose track of one that is valuable,

    This journey is just that, a journey. That means stumbling, tripping, getting lost, going backwards, hitching a ride with the wrong crowd, making a wrong turn, skipping, cartwheeling, finding a legitimate shortcut, blazing by crappy things, blasting roadblocks, soaring over everything. ALL OF IT.

    Also: Pizza and ice cream: they exist in this world. If you like them, to expect that pizza and ice cream won't be a part of your life-- well, that makes me sad.

    I LOVE chocolate. I eat chocolate EVERY DAY. I'm still on track with my health.

    You can still eat ice cream and pizza. You still get to have blow out days, and you can have healthy days with those things, too, it's just figuring out your balance, your plan, what works for your body. One weekend-- it's one weekend. You've got a lifetime of other weekends coming up.

    Keep sharing, keep letting us know how you're doing-- your journey, it's a happy part of my journey, too.
    1908 days ago
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    1908 days ago
    Check you out! You made corrective action. You are making progress even if it doesn't feel or look like it. Keep stepping forward.
    1909 days ago
    You threw the ice cream away! And you came here to Spark! Look on the bright side! And having fewer friends makes it more manageable and improves your chances of getting to know some people well instead of hundreds of people only in passing. It all sounds very positive to me!
    1909 days ago
  • BRADMILL2922
    Life happens, ya know? We aren't going to be perfect all of the time. You had a little slip up and now you learn from that and move on! The key is to not let it get away from you and lead to another slip up, and another...You stop it in it's tracks and you move forward! You can do this!
    1909 days ago

    Glad you took your BP and are monitoring your vital signs. They can sure alert us to upcoming problems. I take my heart rate daily and when it started racing abnormally, I knew I had to stop taking corticosteroids that were recently prescribed for me.

    Good job on throwing out the cookies! emoticon
    1909 days ago
    I agree with LISA -- throwing the ice cream away is very noteworthy and commendable. I've found myself in that situation too -- I give in to a craving and feel guilty, and wonder if I should throw it out and accept the monetary loss, or take the hit to my health? And you know, even though I hate to waste things, I tell myself that a few bucks down the drain is worth more than the harm it would do me. You made the same choice, which is AWESOME! It's also a sign that you won't let little moments like this get you down, and you'll start again. Tomorrow is another day!
    1909 days ago
  • LISAMG1220
    You threw away the ice cream......that is proof you are on the right track. we all have off days, it is the next day that counts. small steps = big changes. :)
    1909 days ago
    It's not always easy and we will all lose focus at times.... Being accountable and knowing what we need to do to get back on track is always a step forward on getting back on track. Tomorrow is always a new day emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1909 days ago
    You haven't given up the ship, just having an "off" spell. I wonder if those come when we have something we need to work through, mentally? Idk. I remarked to Hubby this morning that it seems as the scale clicks back, so do the issues that came up when I was last "that" weight. Or maybe it's the weather or other things. The wind in the sails seem to die down at certain times. Motivation? Issues? Triggers? I love reading your blogs. You tend to think things out and confess the true things and confront them. I learn so much from your writing it out too!
    1909 days ago
    I'm just glad I'm on the list still!

    As for accountability, just chalk it up to being over and get back to healthy food. I know you can do it!
    1909 days ago
    There is NO judgement, we've ALL been there. Those of us that have stuck around know how to get it done and so do you. However, we all need time to get it done as well. This is not a race. If it takes me longer because I ate a bag of Oreos, so be it. Don't stress over it.
    1909 days ago
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