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Jan 25 -- Bye bye Hershey girl :(

Friday, January 25, 2013

I sit with tears rolling down my cheeks. The thought of dinner is nauseating, but I'm pretty sure I don't have the flu. The best dog we've ever had has moved on from this life. We were standing there, saying good-bye and reassuring her as the vet took her life. I feel like we betrayed her.
She was in extreme pain and there was nothing they could do. She was going to lose her leg and the doctor didn't think she could adjust, but maybe we should have tried. She could have taken pain pills but I don't know what that would have done to her personality. I don't even like to take my antidepressants because they leave me so lethargic; what would it be like for a dog to be constantly medicated? Surgery was an option but we just couldn't afford it. How do you spend $1000 on your dog even if she is your friend and a part of the family?
I'm sure some people will say we made the wrong choice and for all I know you may be right, but I'm begging you not to criticize our decision. It was the hardest thing we've ever done and I'll always wonder if we went the wrong way on this one. I work in a Pregnancy Center where we preach and teach the sanctity of life. Did I under-value her life? I know she was not human but she was loving and brave. Did she deserve better? This hurts so much emoticon

Love you baby girl. Miss you forever.
Hershey ... our friend and companion from Dec. 2007 - Jan. 2013
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    Sorry for your loss
    1971 days ago
    I am so, so sorry for your loss. I wouldn't have been able to spend that kind of money either, and I probably would feel much as you do now. Hershey is out of pain now, and there is no way that she would resent you for your choice. Dogs don't know resentment, they only know love. emoticon
    1971 days ago
    So sorry for your loss. Hugs
    1974 days ago
    so sorry for the loss of your beloved dog that knew you loved her and did the best.
    1974 days ago
    I'm so sorry for your loss! I dread the day when I will lose my faithful and loving labs. But I know the time will come and I will be in your shoes. It's easy to second guess yourself after the fact. There will always be the what if's. Hold onto the knowing that you made what you thought was the best decision for your loving and brave friend!

    1974 days ago
    God placed us above and over the animals so that we could take care of them. Sometimes, taking care of them means we have to make very tough decisions. I've been right where you are today. My 13 year old teacup chihuahua began to lose control of her bowels, bladder, and she'd lost most of her hearing and sight. I kept her for as long as i could but when she got to that point, I had to make the hardest decision I've made in a long time. I along with my sister, took her to the vet to do the unthinkable. My dad had built her a casket and buried her for me as I and my sister looked on. We were all in tears. This has only been a few years back for me and I still miss her dearly. It's amazing at how much of a companion a tiny 2lb animal can become. Thankfully, I had a Siberian Husky at the time and still do....she's helped me through the lonely times. She loved her little sister too :) Be comforted knowing your baby is no longer in pain. emoticon from one dog lover to another.
    1975 days ago
  • DARJR50
    I'm sorry for your loss. Having to make the decision to put her down must have been very difficult for you. Did you do the right thing? In my opinion you did. She was in a great deal of pain and keeping her alive and under the medications would have been a great dis-service to her. You made your decision with love in your heart and was with her to the end. I am sure she would agree you did the right thing for the right reason.
    1975 days ago
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