four pounds down... fifteen to go.
Friday, January 25, 2013
I lost four pounds! I had weighed myself about two weeks ago and was up to 144. That had really upset me although a lot of people said it was because I was doing P90X2 so maybe I was gaining muscle. But I weighed in yesterday after only five days of counting calories and taking bee pollen and I was down to 140!! I had forgotten the feeling of seeing that lower number and doing the math to figure out how long it would take to get even lower. I don't expect to lose four pounds again by next Thursday by I hope to continue the loss. It made me remember the feeling of weighing in every week and hoping it would be lower. It really makes you think hard about what you are eating.
Today I wasn't feeling great. We decided to do our usual 'cheat night' which we used to do in the year when I lost the eighty five pounds. It kept me sane and gave me something to look forward to each week. But I didn't completely throw away everything. I ordered eggplant parmesan with no pasta and no bread. And truthfully I did not even finish it. But I think from eating so little and the combination of that with the bee pollen I had horrible heartburn all night long. And this morning when I ran on my treadmill I felt sick to my stomach. Lunch was a salad with chicken, almond accents, croutons, and carrots. For dinner I made the vegetable soup recipe that came in the P90X2 book and it was absolutely delicious. I made a small steak with it only because I know with how much I am working out I need the protein. All in all it was a good day.
I think knowing how close the wedding is really keeps me in check. For the past year I have fought to control my eating. And maybe I need to set a goal every year to keep myself in check. I do wonder sometimes though if I am losing muscle by dieting the way I am. I am starting to do p90x every other day only because I find myself too tired to do it every day. Maybe that is helping my loss. Who knows. Its all so freaking complicated!
In enjoying reading everyones blogs and am so glad to be back. School started again so because my class is online I sneak over here a lot when I should be working lol. Until next time!