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Atheist blues

Friday, January 25, 2013

I feel crappy. I skipped my morning workout today. And now that it's night I have no motivation to do it. I guess I'm a morning workout person. I danced around the apt for a few minutes, but then I didn't have enough energy to do that. I also skipped breakfast because I was running late. Is that why I'm so...bla?

It's only 5pm but I'm tempted to go to sleep so this day will be over and I can restart tomorrow. Actually I want to sleep for the next three months and wake up 30lbs lighter. That's what I want. No effort weight loss. emoticon If I believed in God I would pray for that. Or for the strength to get through the next three months, but I'm a scientific atheist so what to do? Rely on yourself would be my usual answer but today it's not working.

My mom used to ask me where an atheist gets hope from. I usually stick my nose in the air and give some intellectual retort about hope not being a theistic concept. But right now I'm feeling hopeless. If only I believed in magic.

I didn't believe in Santa either...
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  • KIMZEE71
    This blog entry made me so sad and my heart goes out to you. I used to be an atheist, and when I was, I was extremely negative and held out no hope in anything. I understand why you are feeling this way. As a Christian, I finally have hope. I don't think God is going to intervene daily in my weight loss, but at least I know there is something bigger out there than my weightloss to focus on.
    Hugs & Blessings,
    ps. I would love to friend you if you don't mind being friends w/a Christian. emoticon
    2271 days ago
    I do not think God is going to make anything happen for us. If God intervened in our daily lives I think there are many more important things for him to do than to make me thin -- i.e. curing little children with cancer, preventing wars, horrible accidents, etc.

    I am an agnostic. If I want something, I believe I can get it but it will take work and effort on my part.

    I feel crappy today but I know this mood will pass. I am probably having crappy thoughts -- "it is too hard", "I can't", etc. I have a choice -- do I continue these crappy thoughts or do I meditate, clear my mind, get creative and enjoy the day.

    I think I will go out and play in my garden and start the day anew. I feel better already.

    It takes the same amount of energy to feel crappy as it does to feel happy. It is our choice.

    2273 days ago
    KBRADFORD, Well my religious friends and family think the two have to go together and that an atheist isn't allowed to "believe" in anything. No hope, no faith, etc, because they require believing in something without evidence. What do you think? Thanks for the hope!
    2273 days ago
    Tell me more. What does hope and theism have to do with each other? I could send you some of my own hope...
    2273 days ago
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