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I'm Having Serious Motivational Issues

Friday, January 25, 2013

I don't know if it's the January blues, the weather, or the fact that I'm sick, but I'm stuck and I just don't seem to care. I tell myself it's just a passing phase, and I'll get thru it, but the little devil on my shoulder is winning these days. I know I don't need that bowl of smarties, but I ate it anyway cause I feel sick. I know I should only have one of those croissants from Costco (probably only half of one, really), but instead I eat 4 in a day. It's driving me crazy, and I wonder why I'm such a wuss.

I can't go to classes at the gym because I'm coughing so hard there's no way I'll make it thru a class. I know I need to get better before I push myself, but if I know that, why am I feeling so guilty? I go every weekday and almost every Saturday, so maybe I'm having withdrawal - lol I've missed 4 days and am pouting - seriously - what a baby!

I refuse to stand on the scale, because I don't want to know what it's going to say. I've been tracking my food, but I skip the things I know I shouldn't have eaten so that I don't go over my calorie range. It's so dumb because I'm lying to myself, and myself knows it!

I'm not feeling sorry for myself - I'm pissed off at myself. I know how to fix it - I've been at this long enough to know - I just don't feel like it. Is this normal? I am so close to Onederland (4 lbs off) and it just doesn't seem to matter today.

I told myself this morning, that I'll just do my best to eat right all day - when I'm at work it's much easier 'cause I've packed it all with me - and I parked farther away today so I had to walk a block to work. Every little bit counts, and I need to take it one day at a time, just like always.

I know I can do this - I've been doing it all along - I'm just having a hiccup.
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    Well, you ARE sick. Cut yourself some slack. Also, cold weather does effect something called our circadian rhythms and does bring us down a bit which would bring down the motivation a bit as well.

    One thing you could do is set an appointment with yourself where you would set aside time to evaluate where you are and what you are going to do in the next week and if you feel like it, think about what happened this time. You could give yourself a few days to get over this bump in the road and then go to your appointment with yourself and start all over.

    Take care of yourself and feel better!
    1911 days ago
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