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Thursday, January 24, 2013

I was going to rewrite my earlier blog...with a few parts of it and then write out how the day was getting turned around. But, just as I started smiling and thinking of what I could write it all started over again. One sentence was enough to set it all in motion back to derailment.

All I can come back to is this... I'm started to feel a lot of feelings that make me no longer want to be where I am, that I've had enough of the people around me and it's comes with the deep painful feelings, fear, loneliness, hurt, anger...just a few minutes ago I was so happy...now I'm back in tears. Feelings I hate because they involve that horrible D-word. The one that should never be uttered unless you really, truly want that and not because you feel heart broken.

The excuse for all this behavior? "I'm sorry, I don't feel good." Not feeling good emotionally or physically doesn't erase the things that are said. Those burn deep down into people and scar.

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    Awww, I'm so sorry to hear you're feeling so bad. I read the blogs I missed since last time and it sounds like you're really on an emotional roller coaster. I'm sure all the stress you are under is really wearing you down. Having a husband so dependent on you, along with the Clomid... I don't know how you're keeping it together as well as you are.

    Anyway, I don't have any great advice. All I can say is that I understand what it's like to feel so out of control of what goes on in your head. If you need someone to talk to, I'm around.

    I hope you feel better very, very soon.

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