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Day 16... It's all in my head

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

When I started here on Spark, I let the system set my weight loss time line for me. I got a TON of calories and it was hard to eat all of them. So, I decided to change my goals to be more aggressive. It really felt like I had too many calories before. I was under almost every day. So, it seemed very reasonable that adjusting my goal to lose the weight faster would be easy.

Now the top end of my range is about where I was eating before making the adjustment, but it feels harder. Before, my range was 1750 to 2000 or something like that and now it's 1230 to 1580. I think I adjusted too much. I am not any hungrier than I was before, but I feel a mental compulsion to stuff my face.

I was sitting in the bathtub the other night and realized that if I follow the new plan, I'll need to lose 75 pounds by June to be on goal. That seems impossible to me. It seems like I can't even come close to that, so why even try. Once that thought ran through my mind, the urge to binge came right back with full force.

But I know... it's all my head. Spark wouldn't let me set that goal if it wasn't healthy. I am eating plenty of food each day, but knowing that there's this limit out there is driving me nuts. I feel like I shouldn't be eating at the top of my range. I feel like it's wrong to consume all my calories for a given day.

As I'm writing all this, I wonder what's wrong in my head that I feel this way? Why don't I believe I can succeed? Why do limits make me feel like I'm trapped?

All this being said, I am going to adjust my goals again to be somewhere in the middle of what's driving me nuts now and what was too much food before.
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    If you think you should lower your calories with maybe 50 or 100, then go for it but DON'T do it if you're feeling hungry. I believe that hunger is the "diet" killer. I mean who wants to stay hungry? It's not a nice feeling at all. Make sure to drink your 8 glasses of water as sometimes our mind can confuse thirst with hunger.

    I'm sure you will find a way around this. You deserve the best so DO give your body the best treatment! emoticon
    1948 days ago
  • DIANE7786
    For years "experts" told us not to eat much food. It's hard for many of us to get out of that old mindset now that "experts" tell us to eat more. There was too much food when I committed to a healthy food plan about 10 years ago. After awhile it was the perfect amount. I like the book, You on a Diet by Roizen and Oz. They explain why we have to eat more to lose weight and become healthier. It's written in a cute way but has a lot of easy to understand scientific information. There are some parts where I'm sure they were peering in my window.
    1948 days ago
    I know how you feel. You have to learn to change your thinking while you're changing your body. I have come to find that weight loss and a healthy lifestyle is more mental than physical. With that said, start thinking of your ranges as guidelines rather than hard barriers. It will probably help you ease into it. That's what I had to do.
    1948 days ago
    It sounds to me like you're doing the right thing for you. Try to stay away from those binges and I will, too!
    1948 days ago
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