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Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Well, here I am, almost a year later and in the same place I started. Have I been consistent? No. Have I done my best? Not even close. Am I ready to begin again? I hope so.

The truth of it is, I have lost before. I mean the good kind of loosing, as in weight, and I have gained it back. It is so discouraging. I don't know if I am scared or what I am. I guess all I can do is keep struggling on and hoping one day it will click.

I did good for a while last year. Almost completed my C25K program. Then I hurt my ankle and it was all over. I get discouraged and distracted easily, I admit. But I also know that I am a creature of habit, which can be both good and bad. Bad in the sense that right now, I have bad habits, good in that I know once I get going on something, I can keep going as long as I am seeing results.

I don't know what the answer is. I wish I did. I wish I could just do what I know needs to be done.

Sorry to be a Debbie Downer today. I just had to get something in to start off the year. Some sort of explanation for my unmoving ticker.
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  • 68ANNE
    It's not the falling down that is the problem. It is when you do not get back up. You are still going, so you are awesome!
    1911 days ago
  • BRENDA_G50
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    1914 days ago
    I totally understand how you feel! It took me forever to be able to get on track and stay there, because I lose weight so slowly now compared to when I was younger. But the bright side is, once I decided just to hang in there and be patient(and it has been 2 years now!) the weight is staying OFF for the first time ever, because I have worked too hard for too long to EVER do this again, AND the good habits have become ingrained. All those months of losing 1, 2 or 3 lbs (or nothing!) have added up to 58 lbs! And this was the zillionth time since I was 14 that I have BEGUN again, but proves not to give up! YOU CAN DO IT TOO!
    1914 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/23/2013 7:00:07 PM
    Welcome Back!!
    1914 days ago
    If I try again with the same attitude, change doesn't come.

    I have found that when I do finally make a change that sticks, it's because I'm thinking about the topic/issue in a different light.

    I wish you the best of luck!
    1914 days ago
    emoticon You can make a change, just keep trying to make a habit of logging everything you eat and exercise daily. I am here to cheer you on however I can!
    1914 days ago
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