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Anger is rearing it's ugly little head again

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

I'm having trouble sleeping tonight.

There are a lot of little reasons why.

Sometimes on a workout day I just can't seem to settle down to sleep. I'm not sure why. It's not like I left my workout too late. Or maybe it is. But I can't do it any earlier. Not with the shifts I have at work.

Maybe that's a big part of it. I just don't know how to unwind in such little time after work and before bed, while fitting in some fitness.

Another thing today, I lost my temper. It was a silly little thing that caused it. I know it's mainly due to being under so much stress. The exercising. The long hours at work. It's all adding stress in my life. I'm trying to cope, but obviously I'm not doing very well right now.

This whole gym thing is an additional HUGE stress. Having to deal with the place being so packed. The stress of feeling so out of place. All of it. It hasn't become part of my routine yet. I don't look forward to it yet.

I know anger is my defense mechanism. I know why it kicks in.

So why do I feel the need to protect myself right now? I guess that's the big question.

Anyhow, I'm starting to feel tired. I've got to be up in about 7 hours, so I'd better get off to bed. I'll definitely have to follow up on this blog tomorrow.
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    Can you do something at home with free weights to get started for a while before you go to the gym?


    1975 days ago
    Do you happen to have an indoor pool you could use somewhere? I used to find that going for a swim after work very relaxing. I did exercises in the pool and the water made my excess weight a lot more buoyant. emoticon
    1975 days ago
  • JUSTME29
    I hope you were able to get yourself some sleep last night. Adding anything new to your routine is bound to add some stress, hopefully if you give it a shot you'll make the gym part of your routine so it doesn't feel so weird anymore. Not sleeping just makes everything else worse though - I know that firsthand. I don't know what to suggest, unless maybe there is a gym close to your work that you could stop at before you drive home? I know you have quite a drive home.
    1975 days ago
    I'm sort of in the same funk, I want to go to the gym but its so hard to get there and if I don't go, I feel so guilty. I put so much pressure on myself. I don't know what the answer is, except to make the best choices we can. One day at a time. And try not to freak out.
    1975 days ago
    can you find a QUIET place to just sit and think for and about yourself and waht is going on in your head.... sometimes this helps to HEAR the quiet.
    1975 days ago
    maybe now wasn't the best time to start with the gym, what with all the "new year resolutions" crowd. I know, when I did go to the gym, I kind of took a vacation during January, just until the crowd thinned out a bit.
    as for stress, I may be the only woman in the world who will claim to watch The Three Stooges and enjoy it. Also the Marx Brothers and early Bill Murry (?) movies. anything that will make me laugh long and hard. it doesn't make my life less streeful, but i can handle it better

    1975 days ago

    Looks like you need a vacation. Hope tomorrow is a better day. emoticon
    1975 days ago
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