Tuesday, January 22, 2013
Confession, I've lost 4.8 lbs in 4 days. I think I've triggered an old demon. I post about how it's healthy to lose 1-2 lbs, and I know that some weeks you might not lose anything. But I got frustrated about 4 days ago and drastically cut my calories. My food tracker is like, sat-1000 cals, sun-900, mon-650. I'm progressively cutting them lower and lower.
I never considered myself anorexic, but I did do this before and weighed about 120 at 5'7. I was still in the healthy bmi range, all be it at the low end, so I didn't think I had a problem, but maybe I did. Because now I know how ridiculously unhealthy what I did was, 500 calorie days and running 10k until I literally fainted. I was 17. Now I'm 28. Is it possible I've re triggered the beast, as I like to call it?
Seeing that scale drop is so motivating for me to continue on my low cal diet. I was just so happy to finally be out of the 180s. Sigh. What's wrong with me? Why do I go from one extreme to the other.