Tuesday Musings

To awaken each morning with a smile brightening my face; to greet the day with reverence for the opportunities it contains; to approach my work with a clean mind; to hold ever before me, even in the doing of little things, the Ultimate Purpose toward which I am working; to meet men and women with laughter on my lips and love in my heart; to be gentle, kind, and courteous through all the hours; to approach the night with weariness that ever woos sleep and the joy that comes from work well done—this is how I desire to waste wisely my days.
-Thomas Dekker

I really am in an odd place. I know what I need to do, I know I NEED to do it for a healthier and happier me, but I'm stuck. Sometimes I feel as if I have been fighting this for so long and I'm just not making any progress. I know it is my choice and it is my life I am playing with here. I hate how up and down I feel and how many times I am catching myself saying "I don't care anymore." Because I DO care! Deep down inside where I hide from myself, I care so very much. I need to find a way back to supporting myself. Feeling kind of lost right now.

I realize the quote I found today has nothing to do with my ramblings, but it struck a chord with me.

Ame