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Same old, same old...

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

It's been over a year now since my last blog entry. My weight hasn't changed much. It is still the same old, same old cycle of being active and watching my diet for some time, loosing some pounds and getting back to where I started from. My belly is so huge...I am aware of this cycle and it leaves me tired and frustrated. Showing me again, that I am not consistent and loose my motivation and focus once getting started.
I keep telling myself that I just haven't found my 'right' way, but it sounds like an excuse for not putting enough effort into myself. This is not me pitying myself, I just need to get this down on 'paper'.
Since July last year I am meditating once a week in a fantastic meditation group. The teacher is great and she inspires me a lot. Some things have changed since then. I am much calmer, I laugh more easily and my emotions don't swap me off my feet as much anymore than they used to. Also, during the day I feel much more connected to myself. These are small changes, sometimes I am not even sure if it is just a momentary thing which changes back to same old, same old. But somehow I have this feeling that this small seed is preparing to grow. All it needs is mindfulness.
Be good to yourselves, blessings,
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  • KIBBLE55
    Oh what a familar tale you tell - YO YO boy is a name ive given myself I have lost 50lbs on 3 occasions and each time put it and more back on. There is no one or anything to blame its the way I am - food is my comfort banket (dont drink or smoke) my emotional shield - it gives me a good feeling that is until I wake up and be brave enough to step back on a scale.

    The answer is simple - there isn't one for everybody, you have to find your way, it sounds to me that with teh meditation you are more in control with your emotions and this should help you noy take refue in food.

    I wish you all the very best of luck and happiness.

    1914 days ago
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