Breaking the Cycle.

Monday, January 21, 2013

So today is the first time in a while that I’m feeling down, went to the doctors yesterday for my blood test results, Walked away with several boxes of pills, another blood test form and a tiny case of shock.

These test were done at the initial start of my weight lost journey and, showed high levels of Uaric acid, dangerously high cholesterol and my thyroid levels were back up, however my doctor does believe that it would have gone down a fair whack with the changes I have made recently. However still not enough to the avoid the new medication or a 2nd round of blood test or the instant craving for everything bad to make myself feel better, a habit formed over many years of eating when I was down.

Perfect Example, waiting for my blood test, all I could think about was how to justify a sausage and egg mcmuffin for brekkie,- things like, oh I’ll swim a extra lap or I’ll only have a small dinner.

Jebus Maria, the doctor had only just told me NO More sausages, egg yolks or cheese, and here I was wanting to eat crap, to make myself feel better. I would have been upset with myself, because I would have had 2 muffins, maybe 2 hash browns a medium coke, and to be honest with myself, the only reason I didn’t get to maces was because i had my husband car, which is a monster to drive.

Its only now, that I think about the fact that these thoughts and cravings are reason I was sitting there in the first place- Vicious cycle and I’m the only one that can break it.

Maybe a swim this afternoon, can help me clear my head

Grey and dark out side, a little wet…..

Peace Out
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    Thank you to you 3 lovely ladies, your comments really make me feel that i always have an extra person in my court. emoticon
    1916 days ago
    as you said you are changing a life time of habits. One step at the time and you will get there. I went from eating lots of takeaways to hardly eating any at all. The difference now I only eat it occassionaly and I am not sure I even like that now.
    I really like coming home and chucking a meal in the microwave and it is really in about 6 minutes. Most of the time to buy takeaway would take longer than that.
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    1916 days ago
  • MINE_AH13
    Whatever your reasoning, you avoided the drive through! That is certainly a reason to be proud of yourself. If you needed to use the car being a pain to justify it to yourself at the time, that's fine but YOU made the decision and that is fantastic!! emoticon emoticon
    1916 days ago
    This journey can be so hard .. but rest assured we have all made it and some of us are still on the journey ..
    Each time you think of food that will make you sicker. Try to remember that medication cannot cure everything and the right foods can ...
    I am a firm believer in fruit and veggies.
    Less meat and more fish .. and although it sounds hard we can learn to eat well ..
    We Just have to Want it enough ...
    Hugs Susie emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1916 days ago
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