Monday, January 21, 2013

117 Days till graduation! (eep!)

I'm such a procrastinator that I needed to post that to myself, so that every day I can remember that there is a deadline and I need to work my butt off to get stuff done.

The last few days have been a bit odd. Friday I saw the plastic surgeon again. My wound is quote "shallower" so its improving. It doesn't hurt as bad all the time. The nerves have started to regrow in that arm now. My left arm feels fine, or maybe its just in comparison, but the right arm is going through little bits of electrocution when the nerves fire signals to the brain and reconnect. So in fact, I am electrocuting myself ;-) Oh, Science!

I decided to take part in an MLK day sale at Home Depot and went to pick out new carpet on Sunday... with my mom and sister. The two people who trigger emotions and bad eating. And I'd like to think I kept myself in check yesterday. I didn't do too badly, and I saved more than half of my lunch entree for lunch today. Its hard to spend money to make money, but the carpet in my house is the original builder grade carpet, and I'm just replacing it with newer builder grade carpet. No point in blowing $2000+ when $1200 will get the job done. Especially since my house is now appraising for less than I paid for it in 2007. Not by much, but by enough that all of my equity is lost after seller's fees and bank fees and the new sales tax on homes... So that's depressing to think of.

And also having to rent! I know I'm spoiled, but the hardworking equity builder in me would rather pay my $700 mortgage than $500 in rent. *sigh* The only bright spot in moving back to StL is that I will probably just move into an apartment with TJ somewhere. That may seem quick to most people, but I'm ready for it. That boy is just weird enough to click with me perfectly.

So that's the house news. I looked at my finances and decided to keep the roommate. Sans dog. Once I get new carpet, the dogs are gone. Mine included. They get to reside with my parents, and I'll probably just visit them on weekends. Especially if people are going to be looking at my house *and hopefully buying it. I've already started trying to declutter and have come to the conclusion that I own way too much crap. Seriously. I have a problem. So from now until I sell I'm slowly going through stuff and trying to decide if I really need it, donate it, or toss it. Then do I need it now? Or should I pack it? Its a lot to deal with. I tackled my bathroom and vanity this weekend, and made some decent progress.

I also tried to work out a bit. Still no cardio (dear god that would hurt!) but just some ST. No weight lifting either ;-) I feel like my arms got really flabby after surgery, but its really just the fact that I lost all of my muscle tone. Which I WILL get back once i get back into things. I did more core stuff until it felt like I had stretched my skin a bit too much. So baby steps. I just can't be inactive.

I swear this might be a blessing in disguise. There is no way to get someone to want to do something, than to tell them they can't do it. And my body is adjusting to this weight range, so hopefully once I really focus on limiting calories and working out at my old level, these stubborn last 20 pounds will disappear.

I feel better since I started doing my little workouts. The back pain is gone. I fell like I can see my ribs more (and yea, I see my ribs at 190 due to my frame and height -- I have no idea what 170 is going to look like), and I feel lighter than I did at the beginning of the month. I've switched up my food to try to avoid sugar. I had some dairy last week, and boy could I tell. That's officially verboten. I just need to stay away from cheesy food which the BF loves. He actually asked me to make him a cheesecake, 'cause I offered to make him anything he wanted. Can we say, bane of my existence!? Not only is it delicious, its made from three kinds of dairy which make me sick, and full of sugar. So I may want a piece, but I know how bad it is! So I'm not going to make it. I'll make something else instead. I tried to find a lower-calorie one, but none of them looked good.

As far as the thesis goes... its not much further along than last week, but I did manage to sort most of my data files and tried to make it easier to access. I need to e-mail my committee tomorrow to try to set up a date in early May. So *fingers crossed* no one throws a hissy fit when I ask to graduate... 'cause I already signed up!

This week I'm going to focus on eating the food I already have in my house to save money. I did my budget and it is sad! I'm actually checking the mail every day hoping my W2 is in there so I can file my taxes ASAP. I'm one of the people who does it the day I get the W2. Why wait? Mine aren't that hard to figure out since I still file a 1040EZ (my parents claim the tax credit on the house as an interest payment for my loan from them), so its not a hassle like it is for most people. I just would like to start paying down some of my debt. I jokingly told TJ I was like Lily from How I Met Your Mother (she had a shopping addiction and some credit card debt). He has no idea HOW true that is. But I'm working on it, and hopefully sharing the bills with someone and only paying half of the rent, coupled with a better paying job after grad school will help me get out of debt ASAP.

Oh god, job hunting. Haven't done that at all. I'm trying not to get too stressed out by everything I have to do in 117 days, and especially trying not to emotionally eat, but it is getting a little rough. I just need to stay focused and remember WHY I started on Spark, how healthy I want to be, and just know if I focus on my goals and don't beat myself up over the small details, I will keep going, I will graduate, I will find a job (time is the only factor here--when), and I will lose weight.
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    When you feel yourself getting stressed or reaching for the goodies in the kitchen, get out of the house, even if it's just for a 5 or 10 minute walk. It'll help clear your head!

    1973 days ago
    I thought 117 might be a Halo reference. Heh. I have 93 days until I am not longer a Law School widow. Then I get to be a Bar Exam widow.
    1973 days ago
    You are making progress. Good for you. Keep up all the hard work. I know you will get there. And you will only have to rent for a short time. I'm sure you'll find a way to buy again when you are ready.
    1974 days ago
    Hey Chica you know what you need to do I know you will get it all done. I feel ya on the house. I have been in mine for 12 years come March I am so ready to upgrade but to know all the improvements I made in the last 5 years doesn't mean a darn thing and I will break even when I sell sucks!

    There is no need to explain to us about your moving in with TJ so soon as you put it! As with our weightloss journey our individual love journeys are also different! AS Dr. Suess Says "We are all a little weird and life's a little weird and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours we join up with them and fall in mutal weirdness and call it LOVE!"

    Best wishes getting back into working out slowly but surely!
    1974 days ago
    It is a lot to do, but it sounds like you're processing it well and you have good plans in place!

    1974 days ago
    That episode of HIMYM was on this weekend! My husband looks at me during the episode and says "This is so you. How many pairs of shoes did you buy this weekend?" For the record I only bought two pairs and they were on sale and they were replacing two pairs that I had worn to death.

    1974 days ago
    Re: Moving in Together-- AWESOME!!
    I am really happy for you-- and I hope that TJ has a clear idea of how fricken lucky he is.

    Hugs for being mindful of your stress level and trying to keep your eating on track despite that. Sounds like a hard row to hoe, this next few months.

    May your house sell quickly. Possibly consider a re-appraisal after you have added your polishing touches-- Appraisers are people, too, and much can be said (and estimated prices improved) for dog-free pretty new carpet and fresh spring flowers (don't forget to plant a few by the mailbox and front walk).

    And may you end up in a bidding war that pushes the price of your house sky-high!

    GOGOGO Graduation and St. Louis!
    1974 days ago
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