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Discovering Mom

Sunday, January 20, 2013

How is it that I have become 36 years old and need to lose 100 pounds? I've lost and gained many times over the years. But a recent move has "Sparked" me into taking control of my life once and for all:)

I have never blogged before--but having moved to a new town a couple months ago, living in a little rental with my husband and 5 children while awaiting our other house to sell--I find that my weight is about the only part of my circumstances that I can try to control. I left my job, my family, and my friends to be closer to my husband--who has worked away from home most of our 16 year marriage (we've been together for 19). So now I find myself looking for a new job in the school system, helping my children start over in a new town, and trying to live in peace with a husband that isn't used to the chaos of a big family.

I've tried Spark in the past but only half-heartedly. I've tried weight watchers too many times to count. I'm disappointed in who I have let myself become. I'm a good mom--its the most rewarding thing I've ever done, but it is also pretty thankless. I love my husband, but he doesn't understand me--at all. I need a support system and a way to get the stress off my chest. Enter this blog. I may be the only one who reads it--but it feels good to have "someone" to talk to. When I'm reading articles and logging and spinning and reading all the wonderful life stories I don't feel quite so misunderstood and alone in my battle.

Its time to discover Mom. Myself. Who am I? I used to have so many goals and interests. Its time for a new goal. I need to peel off the layers. I need to make myself important again. I need to love me.

Goal #1--lose 20 pounds by April 9. I've lost 2 in the last week--which is encouraging. I have time, I am going to make the most of the tools that Spark offers. I'm going to talk to myself or whoever listens. This is my journey.
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