Okay, so today is weigh-in day for keeping track on SparkPeople. I do it daily, which maybe I shouldn't, but I'm curious to know if I'm losing. Total weight loss today, 7.2lbs. I am super excited.
I have to admit, this last week was really hard. I was and still am not feeling well. I've given up Mt. Dew and McDonald's Sweet Tea and have been drinking water. That wasn't as difficult as I thought it would be. But, perhaps giving up those drinks served to contribute to this past week being truly difficult in all aspects.
As I stepped on the scale to see the amount, the thought running through my head was, can I keep this routine up for the long haul? Am I strong enough to succeed in this, my life-changing journey? Granted, rereading my own blog posts, I can see that I know what needs to be done and how to do it. Plus, reading other's blogs gives me such hope.
I'm scared. Having struggled so much this past week, I want this week to be less struggle, more enjoyment, less focused on weight loss, more focused on healthy choices and decisions, less fear of eating too much on one day, and more satisfied with what I am eating.
This really is hard work. And so, for motivation, and because if I quit, I'll have failed at yet another thing, my Mother has decided to buy me a new fancy-schmancy diamond and pink sapphire ring. If I want it, and I do, then I have to make and sustain this life change.
And, I hope everyone has lost or maintained their weight loss this past week. You all really are simply the greatest. And if this blog doesn't make sense, I apologize. I'm so tired that my eyes keep crossing but when I lay down, my eyes pop open. Oh well, I'll post another blog later today, after I've (hopefully) gotten some sleep, and while watching the play-offs.
Everyone have a GREAT and WONDERFUL day.