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3rd Day-1st Lapse

Friday, January 18, 2013

Well today was my 3rd in StarkPeople, and it was the day I lapsed

1st day I exercised and ate calories within my range,
2nd day I skipped exercising but I ate very healthy and calories-wise. I also went to the supermarket and bought many healthy foods!
3rd day, I began well, but i did not manage to study as well as I wanted for my forthcoming exams, and I got really stressed at night, and even though I had just eaten my dinner just an hour ago, and I was not really hungry, I needed to eat junk food!

I say i am an emotional eater, but truth is that i am actually a stress-eater. I think I can cope well with the rest of my negative emotions whenever they appear, but stress is my destruction!!! When I stress I feel like there is a monster inside me revolting and asking for food, lots of food, and especially greesy! And this monster won;t leave me in peace unless I stuff it with junk food :(

So once again today, even though I started feeling very positive, and even though I had a fridge fool of healthy and good for me food, I ordered delivery. and I ate until the "monster felt better" and I started feel bad, and guilty.

So....I was feeling very bad and I was beating myself to it, but just confessing it to an environment that is supportive and not judgemental made me feel much better!
Which lead me to an great idea about a project!
more details coming soon!

My love to anyone that reads! :)
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    thank you both for your support!!!
    and your advice was just to the point!
    I DO get very easily let my high expectations make me quit.
    but I found out that sharing this feeling and thought with you , and even more getting a positive feedback, really takes a lot of the pressure of!

    Thanks a lot!
    Wishes for a great week! emoticon
    1947 days ago
  • TIG123GER
    We all slip at some point so just shake it off and start fresh today doing all the right things. Do not beat yourself up as that usually leads to more slips. Just accept that you are human and that as long as you do things right most of the time you are better off than before. Lots of luck!
    1949 days ago
  • SELTZER111
    You can DO this ! You are making choices that will lead to a new healthier you. Small changes do add up ! Do NOT beat yourself up for not meeting the expectations you set. We all have bumps in the road, even in the beginning. Do NOT give yourself a reason to stop trying, tell yourself how you are WORTH the effort and continue on one choice at a time. Praise yourself for the things you did do well and for the others, we are all human, push them aside and start out fresh again, eventually all those healthy choices will win out as you see how much more energized and positive you feel ! Good luck to you on your journey to a healthier you ! emoticon
    1949 days ago
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