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Something's Gotta Give

Friday, January 18, 2013

Here it is, Friday evening, and I'm exhausted. My kid were off school today (PA day). I exercised questionable judgment and allowed my son to have a friend sleep over last night. I exercised even more questionable judgement by drinking too much wine last night. The kids were up until 4:30am. Seriously. So, not very much sleep for me again.

I would really like this to be the year that I finally lose weight for good. I've lost weight before. Not quite as much as I wanted, but enough that I was proud of it. And gained a bunch of it back. I want this to be it. I want to lose it all, and for good this time. I want to look at a picture of myself and not feel ashamed of my weight. I want to look in the mirror and not feel discouraged because I have rolls of back fat, or a belly that makes me look like I'm pregnant.

I think I'm getting there. It's really hard though. And I'm going to have to make some really hard decisions if I'm going to get there and stay there. Decisions like going to bed earlier and getting more sleep, no matter what. And decisions like cutting back on red wine. Those are tough for me. I'm going to have to make decisions about how to get enough exercise in during the cold weather. Last week I had exceeded my 70000 step goal by Friday. This week I'm only at 56055 with one day left to go, and tomorrow's going to be a sedentary day because of the all day Scrap & Yap. I need to decide whether I want to go back to the gym to get on a treadmill when I find it too cold to walk outside.

It's been a tough week and I think I've been having a bit of a pity party. I have to end that. I have to decide what I really want, and do what it takes to get it.

Good news today -- scale back down into the 230s. Not sure it will stay there permanently just yet, especially since tomorrow is my free day and there is always a lot of great food at the scrap & yaps and I plan to eat some. But, I think that by mid next week, I'll be solidly into the 230s, leaving the 240s in the dust, this time forever!
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  • no profile photo CD12068091
    Hang in there. It can be hard at times to make those choices but in the end it is so worth it. emoticon

    Hope you have a blast at the Scrap and Yap. emoticon
    2922 days ago
  • NUTKINNB
    It's tough. I've been on here a couple of years & seems to lose/gain the same 5lbs and that's it. I'm also trying to commit to making a difference this year. I believe we can both do it, but it's going to take focusing on the long term over the short term, one of my weaknesses.

    Glad to hear that your scale's still moving downward! :)
    2923 days ago
  • BOGUSANNIE
    Maybe this blog will motivate you some....

    http://www.sparkpeo
    ple.com/mypage_public_journal_i
    ndividual.asp?blog_id=5213016

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    2923 days ago
  • SUNSHINE99999
    Progress is good so keep on trucking. emoticon
    2923 days ago
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