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Crisis- the juncture of danger and opportunity.

Friday, January 18, 2013

First, I would like to say, that this is literally one of the most supportive communities that I have ever come across. It was so interesting to hear from so many people and I am truly blessed to be around such a positive and helpful group.

On Wednesday, after my first visit with a nutritionist, I posted and began thinking about the answer to these questions:
Imagine in your perfect world what your life would be like in 5 years. What would that look like? What would you look like? How would you eat? What would your habits be? Be honest with yourself.

To me, this is one of the most profound questions that I have ever been asked. I find myself at a juncture in my life- I graduate from college this year, I have decided to put my health first, and I am in a wonderful and happy relationship. All those are GREAT things but they also mean that in a few months as I enter "adult" life there are going to be some major changes! Even though I know I have the skills that I need- I am still scared. Will I find a good job? Can I keep up my healthy habits? Where will I live? Can my relationship thrive post-college? So on some level I find it REALLY hard to picture what my life will be like because there are so many unanswered questions.

I am not, nor can I ever be, in control of all that is going to happen in these coming months. This is extremely hard for me to accept considering what a planner I am!!! But what I can control is how i handle these upcoming events and my feelings towards them. Whenever I am in "crisis-mode" and stressed out about the uncertaintly of the future I remember the words of John F. Kennedy-
"When written in Chinese the word crisis is composed of two characters. One represents danger, and the other represents opportunity"
So while there are dangers, exhibited by my stress over a job and a future that I look forward to- and the possibility that i can fail.... I choose to instead see this as a HUGE opportunity to put my entire all into succeeding in both my life and health goals.

So to answer her question without all the panic-
In five years I want to be in a happy and loving place- dealing with my anxiety and depression in healthful ways. I hope I have a job that allows me to use my skills and a husband or partner that I love. I hope that I have reached my goal weight and find peace with food. By that I mean, I do not deny myself but also no longer feel the need to overeat. I hope that I have no concept of "bad food" but that I also fuel my body with what it actually needs (moderation). I hope that I am no longer emotionally exhausted by my relationship with food and instead am strengthened by it. I hope that it comes more naturally and instead of counting calories I can put trust in my body to make the right decisions....something that my body has no practice with at all. My body will be healthy and strong because I will be running half marathons with my significant other. I will find stress relief in my connection to my community (sparkpeople!) and exercise.

These are my wishes, my hopes, my dreams... and one day, my reality. I would love to hear about your "crises' that allow you the perfect opportunity to ACT.

Wish me luck- I am heading to the beach for the weekend (COLD!) for a family reunion! This will be my first real "test" of some of my skills- there will be plenty of food there that is for sure. With such a supportive community, though, I plan on just checking up on all of you instead of going to the kitchen to graze! Let me know if you have other helpful hints!

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    If we don't have a picture of what the future looks like-- we can never get there. emoticon Keep planning, You may not hit every spot but did you know that an airplane flying across the country is off the flight plan about 90% of the time? Yet, with the little corrects the pilots keep making all along the way they get to their destination. "Keep Moving Forward!"
    1897 days ago
    Wow! You are an amazing young woman, and I am honored that you are sharing your story with us. I truly hope that you continue writing about your visits with your nutritionist because I believe that I will learn a great deal from you. I, too, have a lot of knowledge, but not the application for life long changes.

    When you wrote, " I hope that I am no longer emotionally exhausted by my relationship with food and instead am strengthened by it", I was grateful. You put into words exactly what I couldn't express for myself. It is exactly how I feel. I think that I would add exercise to it as well though!

    I have subscribed to your blog, and I hope you continue to enlighten me!

    I don't believe in luck, so I will not wish that for you. However, I wish you the perseverance to continue on your journey when the times are the most difficult. And if you ever need or want someone to bounce things off of, I would like to volunteer for the job!

    Thank you so much.

    -Roquie emoticon emoticon
    1897 days ago
    I am so happy when I see that a young person such as yourself knows what is really important in life and takes the bull by the horns. I wish I could turn the clock back 50 years and duplicate your actions.
    1911 days ago
    I love reading your insights! You have such an honest and open way of expressing yourself. While you are ready to embark on a career, I am working on wrapping mine up. My "crisis" is turning 60 next week, thinking about giving up teaching (I teach college online) and focusing just on one client for whom I consult. Having a land mark birthday has made me really face my mortality and the question of how I want to live the rest of my life. I am not nearly as afraid of dying as I am of being disabled. While I cannot predict or control my future, there ARE things I can take control of. My nutrition is the big one and much of my activity is another. Enjoy your time at the beach and know you have virtual friends and supporters waiting for you to post and reach out.

    1916 days ago
  • MIRANDA1115
    The "crises" that led me to act was finding out and then acknowledging and accepting that my 9 year old son is obese. The finding out, by way of his pediatrician, was actually the easier part. The acknowledging and accepting part was harder. It meant I had to not only see my son through unbiased eyes (he was and still is perfect to me) but also meant that I had to take responsibility for his condition. I am his mother, his provider....his cook. In my own spiral into obesity I had unwillingly and unknowingly dragged my son down with me. Believe me when I say that that was NEVER my intention. I just got so lost in my obsession with food that I neglected to notice the effects on my children. My daughter was fortunate to have not spiraled along with me, but my son....we'll here we are. Obese. Both of us. And that realization and acceptance was the wake up call I needed. We are now both eating well and exercising and we are doing it together. We are on a journey. I vow to do all that I can to ensure his health and happiness. I will do all that I can to reverse the effects of MY mistakes. He deserves better and I shall provide it. He is my motivation and the fire beneath my a**. His obesity WAS my "crises" and WILL be our miracle.
    1916 days ago
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