Jan. 18, 2013- My journey
Friday, January 18, 2013
I have to say that the beginning of 2013 is proving to be a great start!! I have learned so much in the past couple years here on SP about living a healthy life. I am so grateful! I want to share what has happened over the last couple of years. Some of my Sparkfriends already know the ups and downs and backs and forths I've done while being here. I think I actually got it this time around. I fell off the weight loss wagon a few times and got back on, fell off, got back on. I never gave up no matter how guilty and depressed I felt about the way I looked or felt.
I started SP long ago as a suggestion from a friend. I didnt stick with it because it was just too much work at that time. I was too lazy and not ready to really get healthy and stay healthy. Then a few years later, I remembered SP after having my second child. I wanted to lose the baby weight and needed help, but couldn't (and still can't) afford to hire professionals. So, that is where my journey began. In a nut shell, I followed SP suggestions to the 'T'. I did everything: I followed the workout plans, eating plans and anything else I could find. I bought the SP Cookbook and made foods only from the cookbook. That was all great! I lost my baby weight and then some. I went from being loose and jiggly to skin and bones. I literally could see my ribs from my back. I WAS TOO SKINNY!! I looked sick, actually. That wasn't what I wanted either, so I let up on my strict regiment and then gained about 10 pounds back. Wasn't happy there either. I'm not a very tall person and having that extra weight cut my self-esteem in half. I knew I needed to get back on track and be serious. By being serious, I mean that i needed to make a lifelong commitment. I needed to work my healthy "program" in a way that I could live with the rest of my life. I needed to work it so that I didnt feel like I was depriving myself or missing out on foods that I really like to eat. As I have always said, 'everything in moderation'. I still believe that and at times of stress, I broke down and would eat for comfort. I still do sometimes. But only sometimes.
Something has changed in me. Something big! My thoughts, my feelings and attitudes about comfort eating. I think the difference now is balance.
In the past when I would try to lose weight, I either ate what I wanted and exercise to compensate OR I would eat better and exercise less. Now I believe I have found balance... eating healhty and regularly exercising. That has been the key for me. It has taken me a LONG time to get here and I suspect I will occassionally ride the 'rollercoaster' again, but I believe I will stay on track even if I detour a bit.
As I started losing the weight, I got greedy too. Once I got to one goal weight, I tried to get to a lower goal weight to see how much weight I could lose. NOT GOOD! Then, it occurred to me... just the other day, as a matter of fact; I am satisfied with how I look. My clothes fit perfectly. I feel good. I feel healthy. I am proud of how I eat and that I exercise. My favorite forms of exercise are cardio kickboxing and running. I have recently begun integrating strength training.
So, that is my story. I am now at 130 and I feel my very best. I could lose more, but then I would have to work harder. I don't need to. I am content with where I am right now. I have arrived!!